It seems like I am in the transition from the school world to the work world - I haven't really have that much experience in the work world, but the school world was most of my responsibility has been taken place. A job would of been very good for me and I am going to experience the "real world" and what role I have in society.
The real world is a lot different than the school world; the real world is where everyone is doing their own thing. It seems like there is a different social structure in the school world vs the real world.
In the real world, everyone seems to hang in a family. You have your spouses or relationships, and you have your offspring. It seems like there is a connection between you and your significant other, and whatever God gives you for offspring. I haven't found my other half yet, but I can see there is a whole bunch of girls out there but I haven't really found the right one for me.
It seems like people seem to have their role and their niche, and I haven't really found my niche either. There is a lot of growing up to do, but eventually I am going to get there.
I am finding relationships important but I haven't really had a chance to develop too many relationships. I have been in apartments where I haven't really have anything in common with my roommates or the people around me, but eventually I am going to find someone in common. I tend to be a quiet person that rather keep to myself - I have a lot of things to think about instead of fratting around. There is a whole new world that I have to absorb and I am getting a better concept of this world around me.
This growing up thing has been a tough experience, and some days, I want to still be a kid and some days, I want to grow up. It will be nice to buy my own things and possibly go on dates, but sometimes I really don't want to face the responsibility and reality of growing up. I have it pretty easy to have someone take care of me, but it is about time for me to fend for myself. Cleaning and cooking is boring, so I should try to find someone that will clean and cook for me.
There are a lot of decisions and a lot of commitment to make - it seem like it is easier to go back to the carefree days of when I was a younger person, but it is not that great either. The world is harsh and there is a lot of competition - a lot more than the school environment and it seems like there is a lot of growing up to do. I still want to stay in my little high school world but it is hard to get out of it. Getting into high school was a hard transition as well but I had made it.
But there are some benefits of getting older. I am more respected and I have more freedom to do things - back then you are just a "little punk" that most people don't believe but now people do believe me. But there is a lot of responsibility and getting older is not as much as a "joyride" as I think it is...there are a lot of responsibilities and obligations, and there is a lot of putting yourself to other people. But eventually the day is going to come when I accept this.
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