Today I had moved into my new apartment and I am not sure what my roommates are going to be like. But it looks like a clean slate is starting to come in and it might turn into a good year. Tomorrow I also have the job orientation at Wal Mart, which is going to be a new beginning for me. I can finally get some money and maybe move on with my life.
I am not sure what I am going to spend my money on - I am going to get at least about $100 a week, which is about $400 a month. A lot of my money might be sucked into rent and these apartments are not meant for anyone with a minimum wage job. For a sustainable income to pay that apartment, you probaby need to have something more than minimum wage; probably about $10 per hour or more, which are the standards for jobs in the early to mid 20s. But I can see financial aid might pay for it as well, as everyone else in the apartment.
I can see there is going to be a lot better life socially and things are going to get better - hopefully there are some cute girls that are not big fat and ugly or in the special ed caliber. There are probably some dumb ones that don't care about appearance or social skills, and I don't see they are dating material. Hopefully things are going to get better when I have a job.
I really can't predict what is going to happen but I have a feeling that I might be respected a little bit better. I don't think I am going to be the wussy runty guy anymore; I am going to be going somewhere. There are other guys that are the wussy runty guy. Things are going to change and I hope things are going to change for the better. College students are starting to become more conservative these days and it might be easier to get along - I tend to just want to go to bed at a certain time and stick to a certain routine. After working I am going to be very tired.
The battle to get me working has been going on for many years and I think I have been close with dating. I am probably going to date a blonde because I like blondes, but I also appreciate brunettes and redheads as well. There are probably some cute girls right next to me but I never got a chance to get to know them - I think their attitude is going to change about me once I get working and I am the Wal Mart guy coming out; not the runt head coming out.
I notice I got the most respect from the women when I was pretty much the stodgy - when I acted very mature and polite and seem to have a path. Probably buying all the cookware myself might be a turn on to girls - I am responsible and girls like to cook. I am not just buying McDonalds and all that. The same thing with moving everything myself without a parent - a lot of them were doing it themselves and that might be a sure way to show I am strong and independent.
Lord I hope things are going to get better and I think they are - it is time for me to get screwed on. Some day things are going to get put together and I am eventually am going to get over the hump.
I am feeling a lot more optimistic and I hope I don't have a repeat of the last few years - I doubt I will. I have been improving a lot in the last year or so and everything might start being put together.
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