3rd year in apartments is done - now comes to the 4th

I  had completed another year in the apartments and I think this year has been a lot better than the last 2, but you had a little bit of the same thing.  The most social year was in the first year, but it seems like I was lasting trust in my roommates and it started to become a lonely year.  The first year was involved a lot of going back to the high school and it was a continuation of high school, but then the high school has frittered away.   The second year was starting to get a brand new image - a "college image".  It was really a year of finding myself and finding my view of the world - it was an ackward but lonely year, but I think I needed a year to think things through and to learn about myself and the world around me, and how I should contribute to that world.

The first year was an extension of high school, then I finally got out of the high school mode about the second year and I was trying to fit into the college.  It took a while but I did make a friend or two, but it wasn't a year with the gang.

The third year was trying to reform myself, but it was more in the behavior and the practical issues.  The second year was really more the ideas, but the third year was the behavior and I seen a lot of improvement with the behavior, but I still need to work and to have a lot more maturity.

The next year is going to be based on the job and the relationships, and it might be my true good year in college.  I can see I am going over the hump and I need a few quiet years to find myself, and there is probably many more quiet years to find myself as well.

I really don't know what is going to happen next year but I hope it is not going to be a continuation of the last few years.  I think I am going to be a lot more better socially and I am going to fit in a lot better.  I am going to find people that are going to like me for who I am and have something in common with, or I need to change a little bit and stop being out of touch.  I tend to keep to myself but I think I need to get with people.

The job with Wal Mart is going to do that - I am going to be exposed with people all day and I am going to be forced to put up with people.  No more hiding in the corner - I am probably going to be a lot friendlier.  Things are probably going to get better and it starts tomorrow.  It was pretty touch, but what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

Next year is probably going to be a year where I am going to start being in the real world and going to put all the things I learn to the use.  The apartment life, like high school, is an educational experience and I learned a lot about putting up with other people and I seem not to have much of a problem.  I am hoping next year is going to be better and every year does get better.