The part of the plan

I can see whatever has happened to me, if you look closer, does have a connection of what I should be doing in the future.  Even though things happen they way they are, there are some subconscious things that show "previews" into the future.  I can see a pattern with the college life.  Something has to been done and some of the bad moments had been turned into good moments.

About 2 years ago, this girl likes me is a preview and the fact that girls do like me, but I have to do some shaping up.  I think she really liked me for who I was and she can see a lot of good in me.  She probably thought I was intelligent and had a good sense of humor, but she found someone better or someone "better" found her, which was lowering my self esteem.  I have a feeling that she might return and she might be "the one" or she is a preview of the "true one."

I can see she might be a preview of what's to come if I shape up, and many events make me want to shape up.  After this period of things are starting to come together, things are starting to fall apart at the same time.  It was probably a bunch of behavioral issues that are going to get things corrected.

Now things are getting corrected, but there is probably a timing issue I have to go through.  I think I have to survive this recession to help me grow up and I think I need to learn the valuable lesson of competition; that I need to put my best foot forward if I want what I want. With this economy and with the experiences, I had learned to "grab it" before it is too late or things are going to fall apart.

I think this job situation might be part of "the plan" and it works out.  I need to go through a responsibility riser such as a flood to grow me up and I need to probably spend a little more time on my own. I think this was a good budgeting experience and I think I have learned the lesson of "grab it" instrad of think about it.

I think she might be a very close to the one because she is a lot what I am looking for, but eventually I am going to get my values straight to see what I am truly looking for.  I think someone like her is for physical appearance and personality, but I am not sure if "she is the one" or not.