There is going to be a long journey awaiting me and only God knows where I am going. I am not really sure what exactly I am going to be doing next year or in the next 10 years or even 40 years, but I can see there are going to be some good moments and some bad moments.
I really don't know what I am put on this Earth for and only God knows my purpose. But it seems like the things that I do seem to have a pattern and they might, if you look at it, have a subconscious preview of the future. The things that I am doing in childhood and in my teenage life might be a preview of what adult life might be like; even some of the stuff that is in college is going to have a pattern.
It seems like people's life have a pattern and you only decipher the true purpose of their lives when they die and when you write the obituraries. Why on Earth I am here for? Why I am here at this time and this location, along with this family and the right genetic code. Even the friends I have might have an influence that I might be in the future.
I really don't know what is going to happen, but I can see some things that are for sure are going to happen:
In the next few years, there are going to be a lot of growing up moments and there is going to be a period of settling in. I am going to find my love and it is hard because I haven't really been involved with romance in the first place, but there is someone that is truly waiting for me. I can see a preview of what I want with the girls that had a crush on me -they are close calls and they might be a preview of the true girl. It could be a blonde, a brunette, or a redhead - you never know.
Then I am going to get some money and I am going to start buying things and doing things I want to do, along with having children and doing the responsibilities to support my family. There is going to be a lot of things to do. I am going to have my role in society, which is my job and I am going to have my role in my family and my home. The role in society is going to trade off to support me and my family, along with a few rewards to do things myself along with my family. Maybe family is going to be my own goals that my interests are going to center around family instead of me.
But eventually I am going to have to start all this stuff by getting a job - figuring out my role in life along with trying to find out the right girl for me that will like to go along with me. There is probably someone just like me that is going to get me and is going to have the same goals and values as me, and that person might not be that far away. Maybe she might be the girl next door at the apartment who just turns out to get me.
There is probably a female me or someone that is really compatabile with me. There is a lot of close calls but I haven't really found the one that truly gets me.
Romance sounds to be very important to me but I think I need to get my head screwed on. Working is something that I got to do and I got my thing I got to do to make this world a better place. God has gave me the gifts and the talents for me to do something to help someone else and society. The Wal Mart job that I apply for might be the start and I am studying Organizational Behavior. There might be a connection - maybe I might help people at Wal Mart. At least it is a job and I could start to contribute by helping making sure that the carts are put in the right location and maybe helping people bag groceries, find things, etc. I know the store from one end to another and I might be a help there.
At least it is a job and it might be a start. I really don't know what I truly want to do and there might be a lot of "I don't knows". There are many places for me to go and things to see, and only God knows what is going to happen.
There are many things I got to do, but I have to start somewhere. Something is going to motivate me to get me out of bed each more and I seem to be plodding along. I am not really helping others, but I really don't know what to do to help others, to show love and passions for people. There is a lot of things going for me and I think I have to start somewhere.\
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