The internet and me

It looks like the internet is a great tool for me, and it has done a lot of great things, but there has been many bad things that happen on the internet.  It looks like when I say the wrong things on the internet, I cause lots of drama especially on sites such as Facebook.  Contrary to what other people say, I did not necessarily had much of a problem on MySpace; it looks like I was pretty well behaved on the site.  It looks like Facebook has the problem. Facebook was a site where you had more of the preppy, clean cut kids where MySpace is a place where you can let all the quirks hang out and nobody will care.  But it looks like Facebook has been the standard site for everyone and it has become very adult like.  Facebook has started to become a site to brag about your kids and your family life - it has gotten to be very boring.

Adult life is boring to a sense.  It seems like you have the kids that take over your life and your job anyway,  and it seems like you are going to be in this rut.  I am now experiencing the economy and starting to become frustrated  about it, but it has been a time for me and everyone to improve myself.  The social skills and everything is going to improve.

Now, back to the web.  It seems like there has been a good things about me on the web, but I think there has been the problems.  YouTube has been an excellent  experience for me and the internet is excellent for keeping up with the news.  I had also exposed to many things that I never had before - Google Earth is an excellent thing to learn about the world around me.  But it seems like there has been the bad things on the internet.  It seems like I have been using the internet for a crutch and I sometimes start researching things that are going to cause anxiety.  It looks like I have been researching things that are dried out topics and things that I have gotten solved already, such as anything related to relationships, not having friends, drama, some mental or physical illness, or envirommental fears.  I also might have to watch me hormones on the internet as well - hormones + internet = another fun but wasted session I will regret on the internet.   You know what I am talking about.

It seems like I get lonely or bored and I start thinking about things or fantasizing things.  I probably fantasize about things such as romance or sex, which is common for a lot of guys or get depressed when I am not doing other things. Maybe I can find an healthy alternative to use the internet.

My parents had suggested for me to get Netflix or something like that - I can watch some movies and TV, and I would actually have some time to relax.  I am pretty good on YouTube when I listen to music or something, but even on YouTube I start looking at the weird things. Maybe it is time for me to put the clamps on YouTube so I won't be looking up whiny stuff.  For a while, I have been looking up things about being gay or something, or some mental illness. I am not bad when I look up some funny videos that everyone else likes to look up.

I sound like a typical person with ADHD on the internet and I have ADHD, but I am medicated during the day, which makes me pretty normal.  The internet will be pretty boring and I will just listen to music, and watch movies.  It looks like it is healthy for me to fantasize a little bit and maybe get a little bit of a laugh.  Sometimes I am on the internet and I enter the eccentric ADHD world of me and I start with the self stimulating behavior on the internet.  I start thinking about things and I start dreaming up things, and want to use the web to STIM instead of actually use the web.