The first year of college was a pretty memorable experience. I was underrating that first year of college, but I had learned a lot and it was sort of an education of itself. Since I was in a different degree, and I didn't really care much for it, the college part was not that educational but the apartment was a very, educational experience. I had learned a lot about life and what people are pulling.
The roommates I had were the craziest, kookiest people that I have ever met, and they had done lots of crazy stuff. But that year was a year of finding out who I truly was. It was a very social year and it may be one of the most social years of my life. There were people popping in and out all the time, and they were getting involved with lots of stuff such as drinking and drugs.
One time, one of my roommate buddies were giving someone some homemade beer and the person didn't got drunk, but pure LOADED and did some of the stupidest, craziest, wackiest stuff out there.
I did got to bed because I was a "square" and I was smart. All of the stupid stuff happens after 10:00 but I did stay up til 12:00 a couple of times. I was having so good of a time that 12:00 just snuck up on me.
That year really shaped who I was, and it was one of the more peaceful times when I got back to the high school. Even a possible "romance" was blooming.
The first year was quite an adjustment and it seems like I needed a year to be alone and find myself. That was the second year and it was all about the medication, along with developing my philosophy on the world. I had decided that I am going to be a "new me" after this mess and that proves that the "old me" was a failure from high school. Nobody was telling me, but I think this year was actually a gift from God. I think I needed a crazy year to find myself and then I needed sort of a few years to "reform" and become the "new me."
The first year was about 2-3 years ago, but I still remember it and it has shaped me a lot. It was a transition year from high school and college; it was the best of both world. It is my first college year and it was my last high school year - it was a transitional state from the high school and college.
The high school to college transition is a lot of stress, and your first year of college is usefully stressful. I don't think I was deep down ready for college that year and I was still homebound, but it was good for me to get out a little and I needed the experience. I think I have gotten pretty well adjusted to the college life and now I am going through another transitional period.
I think the first year of college was my "true senior year" - I don't think I was ready to graduate in 2009 but I think it finally hit me about 2010. After my grandma died, I think it was a dawn of a new era and it was time for me to change.
The next 2 years was getting the ADHD medications adjusting and it was a quiet 2 years, and it was more based on me thinking and finding myself, especially with the new medications. The last 2 years were not the most social unless I am growing up, and they were somewhat depressing. I think the depression was a hangover from the first year of college, and it seems like I want to regress back to high school but "what if I was normal."
But really I was too old for high school and I was what I should be - in college. College is a time of maturity and I think I needed it. I think I needed an extra time to grow up before I got dumped into the "real world." I am gradually getting dumped into the real world and eventually, I am going to fullfill my goal of getting my first job and that is going to be a period of change and adjustment. But it seems like I am starting to get slow transitions, such as the increased reponsibility of buying my own food, more driving around, and probably staying longer in the apartment, along with more "real world" time and less college time.
I think I am about due for another social year, but a more mature social year. Hopefully it is not going to impact my schoolwork. I think friendship and relationships are going to be very important to me when things get adjusted.
Things are probably going to fall into their place someday and a peaceful pattern is going to follow. I had been going through a lot of stress and crisis, but I can see I am going to bust out of the crisis and it is going to be a period of peace. I can see things are going to be peaceful when I start having a job and having the right roommates, along with the right classes. The job is going to fix a lot and my landlord is right - have the right roommates that I will be very compatible with and things are going to be peaceful.
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