The future is coming and eventually I am going to enter the world of adulthood. I can see the world of adulthood is going to be hard, but I am eventually going to put my place into the world. Basically, at 21, I can do almost anything but it looks like I have not grown up yet. I am not ready to build houses and I doubt I will even build houses, but you never know. I haven't really established any independent income yet and I haven't worked for the public. I did volunteer but I haven't really gotten involved with any bills, any taxes, and any of that stuff that adults seem to bitch about.
I am involved with taxes even without a job - there is the concept of sales tax and that makes McDonalds suck, or anything suck. Sales tax is stupid - I have to rake in a few extra cents or even a dollar that I can't even afford to pay for something that the government needs to suck. Of course, we have road construction and we have the fire department, but while you have to pay for this stuff out of your own well earned money. This sounds like tea bagger stuff but there are some common sense - we do need to have roads, but why you have to deal with other stuff.
I don't really have anything to gripe about taxes but it seems like I haven't really experienced adulthood. I am trying to find a job and it is the stinkin' economy that is keeping from getting a job. No manager wants to hire me, but will hire some guy that is dumber than me or some Mexican dude instead. I am just as qualified to be hired but why you have to have a Mexican dude or some pregnant teenager. I am just as qualified and I need work, and it will help me grow up. But it looks like nobody cares about me. Someone should let me in the door and let me WORK, which will help me mature. My world is going to change once I have a job.
Someday I am going to get a job, but it looks like I have a hard time to motivate to work. It seems like I just want to sit on my butt and whine too my parents, but my parents think the source of me not being too happy is not working. It looks like I need to have a function and I need to find that function, and not being some philosophical person that thinks about the world. I do have some great philosophy on things but I need to get into the world.
It looks like I am griping about relationships as well. It seems like I am normal but it looks like things are keeping me from growing up. It looks like I am looking for relationships but it seems like I want to be in a high school level, not anything too serious. I am looking for trying things out. I doubt I am going to find the right one. There are a few things I need to catch up in high school before I get the boring, adult life.
I can see there is going to be some change and it looks like there are going to be some responsibility, and I have changed a lot in the last 3 years. About 3 years ago, I was one of these guys that had no real goals and was forced to grow up because my parents don't want me hanging in the house. I probably wouldn't of gotten a job and I would of been these guys that will just suck off some allowance and walk around drinking malts. But there are some more growing up I need to do.
I think I should enjoy my life and try to catch up on things before I start with the boring adult life,unless I am ready for the boring adult life. But it seems like adults are boring - all they seem to do is bitch about taxes and regulations and work and kids and in laws and ex wives/ex husbands, and then when they are old they gripe about ailments and social security. There is a lot a complaining about diet as well too when you get older, when you are to count calories. But what do teenagers gripe about - their acne, high school drama...they are BORING! Maybe it is more exciting to gripe about work and ex wives that how your self esteem is not that good.
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