Growing up is tough

Growing up is something that I have to deal with.  I do want to continue with my childhood but my childhood is somehow is going to come to an end, but there are going to be many things that I get to do when I am older than when I am younger.

Being a child may seem like it is easier, but really you don't get to do much.  You are not really exposed to the real world as much as adults.  Children just see the world in a wide eyed view, and in a fantasy view.  Adults see the world in a different life. 

As children, your obligation is going to school and maybe playing.  Playing could be fun, but really, do you get anywhere.  You just fool around too pass the time.

There are many responsibilities that come to being older, but you have a lot more freedom when you are older.  You have freedom of choice and you can do whatever God gives you.  Sometimes this freedom is a little  tough.

I am so used to this structured lifestyle of childhood that it is hard to get used to the more unstructured, unpredictabe lifestyle of adult.  But once I get into this lifestyle, things are going to be different.

Look at all the things I can do, the places I can go, the things that I learn - there is a lot to experience.  It looks like I have desires to grow up but I also have many fears to grow up as well.  It is very hard when making decisions that seem to have major importance, but when you are older, people are going to actually believe what you are saying and you are just "not a little punk" anymore trying to rebel.

The power of persuasion is also a part of growing up and maturity means you can convince and persuade people to do something without thinking you are another one of these teen rebels.  It might be nice to be this person to tell your parents what you truly believe without having a mouth or a bickering back at.

I tend to be these people that seem to keep to myself and I think it is time to get out of my nest.  I do love my parents and my grandparents, but I think I should start to love someone else as well.  Dating and relationships are going to be something that I am going to look forward to, and that is something that requires a lot of commitment and growing up.

I am thinking about the idea of going back to a simpler time where you don't have to do things, but maybe this is not a healthy behavior.  I know it is going to be easier and it is going to relieve stress, but it is not going to get me anywhere and it is going to lower my self esteem.

I am still deep down going to be my moms little fluff ball or whatever, but maybe it is the time for me to grow up and make my own choices.  I stil want to be the little kitten but really I am turning into the cat anyday.  I am starting to become fully grown and I am ready to reproduce, and make more me.  Maybe I am going  to find one that will go along with that.

But I am starting to grow up and God please help me.