Things are starting to get figured out

It looks like things are starting to get figured out.  It looks like I am gloating about how great things have been going lately, but it looks like things are starting to be put together and I am going to be ready to move on with life.  This  education I got have not been wasted a bit and I think I needed some time off to learn about the world around me and to figure out who I am.  It looked like by the time I graduated from high school, I had a template of who I am but I don't think everything was put together.  I known I was interested in the music and the more creative endeavors such as music production, but I think I needed to figure out who I was philosophically and this college education did help me.  This college education did help me figure out where do I truly stand in this world, which I haven't figured out in high school who I was or who I think I was.

It looks like  I was trying to conform to the trends - rap music was popular so I conformed to the rap culture without much meaning of what is all about.  Then when I got in the apartment, then I found out what is was truly about and it is something that I don't want to be exposed to.  Gangs, smoking, drinking, stealing, beating up...very depressing stuff which they had overglamorized on the TV.  It was sort of a revival of high school and thank God I was not involved in this stuff.  But the good thing about college, they had pinpointed that I had a problem and it needed to be fixed, and it looks like I got it fixed very sucessfully.  I also have to gloat about the A.A degree, which I needed, more education about the world around me to get a philosophy about life that I haven't truly gotten in high school.  It looks like I starting to have a view of the world around me, and what is truly happening, and I was starting to establish a more mature, moral code which I did down always had but it was not "cool" or out of touch.  I notice other kids were involved with stuff such as drinking and sex, but I have not been involved with it, even though it was  not "cool".  But it looks like my lifestyle might be cooler in the future and it is more cooler in the adult and professional world which it really matters.

I had noticed through experience of job application and job application, I am having a better view of the economy and what is truly going on.  I think I am learning I need to clean up my act in order for me to get a job - I need to improve my handwriting and my presentation skills; it is not cool to wear a gid up in the professional world and in the future, even in the weekend world.  If it does not reflect my values, don't wear it.  And it looks like the TV needs to glamorize more conservative attire, such as what they did during the boy band era of the 1990s which everyone made fun of but it looks more approachable than the other gid up that was popular at that time.  I am starting to learn that I need to look nice - grunge is not cool and flopping around is not cool in the real world, and even in today's high school and college world.  I will get more respect if I dress more modest and professional, and work on my grooming which was not the standard for a long time.  My handwriting skills might need to improve along with my assertion skills and my attitude.  It is time for me to grow up and realize there is a better world coming in the future, and to quit looking back in the past.  Things are not that great.

It looks like I need to change and once I change, I think I am going to like it.  I am getting older and maybe it is time for me to act like that.

I looked back into the high school and I looked at what truly matters about your past in the real world.  It seems like in the job application, all it matters is if you are a hard worker and a good student who is a good citizen in the high school or the community.  I don't think employers care what clique you are in, but I think they are looking for people who are not under the influence of drugs or alcohol, no crimimal record, good student, involved with the community and the school, and lots of volunteering.  Maybe in the real world, teenagers are supposed to unselffish and I think employers don't like self-centered teenagers.  If a teenager seem to be less self centered, supportive, and compassionate, and hard working, employers will hire you but if you are some slacker, employers won't.  I am starting to learn about being selffish and egocentric is not going to get you anywhere.

The same thing with romantic relationships.  I think they don't like anyone who is self centered.  You need to think about the girl or guy, not yourself.  A lot of prom dates are self centered and the girls are more worried about the dress and the popular escort - very egocentric.  Really most steady couples and hired teenagers are unselffish teenagers. 

It looks like the solution to a lot of problems is selffish and egocentrism.

Instead of thinking like this:

Why do you want to get a job?

I need money. My parents said I need one.  There's a cute girl/guy that I want to chase. 

I should think like this:

I have many ideas that will make this store look great.  I could cook very good burgers and I think people should try my burger cooking techniques.  I like the layout of the store; I have ideas to make it better.

Instead of thinking like this:

Dating this girl will make ME popular.  What will happen if she is going to reject ME.

I should think about this:

She has very pretty eyes.  She has very pretty hair.  I like her personality.

This selffish thought I should stop and I should get somewhere else.

Instead of saying

What am I going to do...I should say What I am going to do today to benefit for someone else, not me!