I have been looking on the internet about what my classmates are doing and it looks like I am going somewhere more than the other students. A lot of them are working entry level jobs but it looks like they are not going any where or have many significant plans. I also see a lot indecisiveness and it is even me I have indecisiveness, but it looks like I am going through a wise path.
A lot of them have decided to go whoopsie and have children, but they do not have enough money to feed or support them, and it looks like they are in a mess. A lot of them are not married when they have children and having that first child might be an awakening in which I think these students are not ready for me to encounter.
There is a lot of chaos and confusion with my classmates, but it looks like things are going to be pretty stable with me. It seems like things are starting to get put together and things are going to be pretty stable in the future. It looks like I am ready to look for a job, but God knows what job I am going to have, but Lord pleas help me find a job.
But maybe I am lucky that I am not in the situation that these other children are going through - it looks like my mess is mild compared to mine. I have to experience a half way messy apartment which is part of being part of dorm life.
That last few years of college have been years for growth for me that I haven't really truly had in high school. I known I went through a few moments in high school, but it looked like I had growing up to do. It seemed like I ended high school in a bittersweet feeling, but I was ready to move on with life, and it looked like I was ready to get started on the next stage. But when I got in the I.T program, I was going through second thoughts about the decision I made and I wanted to start over fresh.
But the last few years have been good years - they have not been the best years in my life but they were years where there were a lot of growing up and change. It looked like high school for the most part was not the bad and it was a pretty fun time - I had a few incidences of drama here and there but it looked like things wen pretty smoothly. High school was really not as social of a time because there was a lot of responsibility with me which did not gave me the social life but I did have a social life and I was doing just fine. People did like me and I have a lot of fun memories, and it looks like the fun memories are going to replace the bad memories of high school. But high school was a lot of responsibility especially with my aging and dying grandparents. It look like it changed me view of high school and high school is not all about the cliques and the popularity, but it is a time to serve one another.
I should look back to the fun times of high school - teenage life did have it's good points and it looks like most of my high school career has been pretty fun and partially into my college career. The first year of college was tough but it was fun and I will always remember the first year of college, good or bad. One of the buddies I made in college said that the year 2009-2010 was the best year in my life. I don't think I have hit my best years of my life but there was a lot of experience that I never had before. I consider 2009-2010 my golden high school year - it was a peaceful and fun wrap up to high school before I move off into college. When 2010 started to move along, I decided it was time to start a new beginning and to start fresh.
The last few years were a time to start finding out who I was and where I stand - I was starting to get a philosophy on things which I haven't clearly had defined when I was in the high school. I was starting to get a worldview about things and it is starting to put together now.
Compared to others, my life in college has been going smoothly - I did have it tough but I also had it good in the first few years of college. Maybe I needed to change and to find out who I am, and where I stand. Eventually, after college, I am going to figure out what I am going to do. I am thinking about settling into my first real apartment and eventually working on finding romance.
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