I am going to be 21

I am going to be 21 in a few weeks which is a shocker.  I am not sure if I am ready for this but you never know.  I had grown and changed a lot in the last year and it'll seem to me that I haven't really done much in my first years of being legal.  All I had done is educate myself and maybe change myself, but it is time for me to something for other people.

I just entered the world in the adult standard (since I started 18) and I haven't really done too much.  It looks like I was just whining about my past, not going anywhere, but I need to go somewhere.  I have a whole life ahead of me and I got some potential and I'll like to do something in life, and show the world what I had got.

I am 21 and I still consider myself a teenager.  I am still in a "high school" environment and I am living with a dorm with my peers.  I don't have a job and I am not even dating.  I can drive by myself, which bumps me up to about a 16 year old.  It is about time I should do something.

It seems like I have been focused on myself all these years, and it is time for me to focus on others.  I know this may be hard but it is time for me to put myself for other people in one way or other.  I have been suggested that I should do some volunteer work because I need to show the world I am more like the parent, not the child.  I had chased around and "helped other" kids at a VBS last fall and I had did great.  Some of the kids had remembered me when I am helping out.  I should try to volunteer in something and show the world what I got, and what can people could come to me for.

I am getting educated and I am starting to know a lot - but I need to apply myself a little better and start doing things for others.  You never know what I am good at.

I do volunteer on the internet once in a while - I do help add my expertise on Wikipedia and help make the knowledge on Wikipedia a little better, but I don't think it is believable and not everything is factual.  Very biasesd. 

I need to be known for something - I should be known for someone that is willing to do something and can do something for other people.  Even if it's feeding the poverty at a soup kitchen  - I can get this feeling that I had fed a lot of hungry poor people.

This might help me in relationships - I should be someone that a girl should look up for, not have the girl better than me.

I know it is not part of my nature or maybe it is part of my nature.  It seems like I have been in a college world where I had learn to be isolate and start to "find myself" - maybe it is time for me to "find myself" by doing things for others.