In the last 3 years, I have grown up a lot. I had changed from a totally different person when I graduated high school than I am now, and I have learned a lot of lessons about life. It was the best education I have gotten and I have to thank mom for not even wasting one nickel on it. Actually I would like to thank my grandma for it as well for supplying the money for the education that I have definetely need in my way it was sort of a blessing.
When I started college, it was a wild ride and there was a lot of experience. The apartment was good for me. I learned a lot about living with people that I would of never would of lived with in high school and I had learned how to deal with anyone, which was good for the job. In high school, it looked like I was kind of shy and I did not respect a lot of people, and did not trust a lot of people. I had my friends but it seemed like I was not seeing things the way they really were. I had distorted perceptions on a lot of things and this apartment life had ironed things out. It looks like I learned how to deal with anyone after about 3 years in the apartment because I had seen it all.
The first year had it's ups and down, but when I look back it was a better year than I think. I was a year where I was trying to find out that I had a problem, and what my real problem was and I needed to be fixed. I found out the problem was ADHD and it seemed like the core of all my problems or a lot of my problems I have been encountering.
That summer I decided to start fresh and started to have a clean slate. I was trying out the medication, along with the same thing learning about the world around me and what makes the world tick. The classes I taken have not been wasted and I have learned a lot about the world around me and I was starting to establish a worldview about the world that I have never thought about before. I was starting to have a philosophy on things which was influenced by the classes I have been taking along with the outside experience I have out in the apartment.
It seems like after a few years, I have narrowed down to what I am going to do and I am having a pretty good view of who I am and how the world works, along with what I think I should do to contribute to this world. The experiences with the roommates had influenced a lot along with the struggles that I have with finding a job. There was a lot of learning I have to do and there still has to have a lot of learning and experiences to be done.
Now I am starting to have a pretty good view of the world and what I am good idea, now it is time for me to apply my views and my skills to the world of work to help other people and to contribute to society. It looks like a picture of who I am is coming but it looks like it is incomplete, and thing that might complete the picture is probably to get involved with a job.
I am going to learn a lot with my first job and I am going to encounter a lot of new experiences and new adventures. Only God knows what is going to happen and I hope he is going to help me plan out what is best for me. I have to thank God and my parents, relative, friends, etc. to help me get through the last few years and I would like to have God guide me through the next phase of my life.
It looks like the job might change everything - the friends, the interests, the views, the relationships, the self esteem; it is going to transform everything in my life and it is going to be a sense of achievement and greatness of when I get my first paycheck. I got a lot to be introduced to the adult world but when I get exposed to it, I think I am going to like it and enjoy what God wants me to do.
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