It looks like I have a tendency to whine and bellyache, but I should try to find out what makes me special. It looks like I am a person without much personality but when I do come out I sound like a pretty special guy. Some days I feel like I am down in the dumps and no one likes me, but it is not the case - there are a lot of people that like me very much and would like to get to know me.
It looks like I am a pretty independent individual - I am not much of a partier and I seem to keep to myself. I have a lot of things on my mind such as going to college and trying to get a job, and move on with life. After that I am going to focus more on relationships. I am sort of a quiet person but I need to open up a bit - it looks like I like to get into a routine and I don't want to bend the routine. It seems like I like the familar more often than the unfamilar and then I stick to it. It helps me stay organized and on track of things. I also live in a place where you can't really do much to bend the routine.
But I do need to open up as well - it looks like when I get into a rut, it seems like life seems to slip away. I think it is time for me to be a little more adventerous and explore the world a little bit more often than to be in a routine.
But it seems like I get into a routine because of the college schedule - I have a certain times of the week that I have class and I have the rest of the time to study for my classes. It looks like it is going to be pretty simple once I get into classes that I like. College is a great place for me to explore and learn about the world around me, and I have learned a lot. I think I should learn a little more than the curriculum and start reading about things for pleasure - I am starting to read in the library and it looks like there are many interesting books on many topics that will make me a smarter and more well rounded individual.
The routine is good but it is time for me to get out of my rut. I know it is easy to keep a consistent schedule and it does get things done, but I need to be a lot more adventerous. But I should not go to the other extreme where I get under the influence of drugs and illegal activity.
I am busting out a little bit and by this summer I should start to establish a new routine. Getting a job will break my apple cart a bit but it is good things to change things up a little bit. Routine does keep me organized and on my toes, and I do have a hard time getting organized, but I need to bust out of my comfort zone and start to do things a little bit different. I can start by getting to know somebody that I don't usually get to know - I should get out of my self centered little world and be a little more interested in other people. They have fascinating stories to tell and they have many things I can learn from them, and they can be pretty interesting if I get to know them. If you think about, I can be a pretty boring guy if I do the same old same old.
Life has many changes and I am going to go through many changes in the future. I am changing even tomorrow - everyday involves a same and it looks like it is going to be the doldrums if I do the same old same old.
The main problem is financial issues - it looks like I have a limited supply of money to do things so all I can afford to do the same old same old. The same thing with gas prices - we are getting up there on the gas and it might be about $5 before we are done, which is not good. This might make everyone in the routine. I think it might be time for me to get a job so I can do more things.
Then the next things is the relationships - getting to know people can be fun. It can make life exciting. Even though some people are different from me it looks like I need to get to know people that are a little bit different from me. I don't think there are too many people that are different from me. I need some time to develop as an individual and you don't see me developing myself as an individual if I am obsessed with the same routine all the time. I like the familiar because it is good but I seem to be in a rut. Maybe I should go to another restaurant besides McDonalds all the time - McDonalds is good but it is not good for you as well.
I got a long life to live and I have a long time to get a job, but once I get some money I should open up my mind and try new things. I should also try to expand my network and expand my skills to get a job as well. Routine may keep me organized but I need to stop being so robotic and become a more free thinking person and free spirited person.
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