It seems like the last 3 years of young adulthood has been growing up and changing years. It is a whole new life - it looks like that my 18th year was the hangover from the party of being 16 and 17, and it seems like it was an hangover. It looks like I was realizing that I was in the independent world, and it is time for me to get my act together. My 18th year was a very stressful year but it was very fun when I went back to the high school to hang out - it was really my last true high school year and things seem to hit rock bottom by the end of my 18th year. It looks like I was going nowhere and it was time for me to get some help - so I asked God for some help and then he helped me.
By the end of my 18th year - my grandma died, my stuff was getting stolen..it was a mess and I realized it was time for me to change. But I alsio had kids griping at me all the time about some of the quirks that I have such as pacing around, talking too much, creeping people out, being very opininated, talking to loud, losing things, not keeping track of assignments, having a hard time keeping up with schoolwork, barging into other people's conversations, and having an intense love for Ke$ha...lol. Maybe not the Ke$ha year but that year was a year that I realized that I have an problem.
I got medicated on my 19th year and that was the year when I started from fresh. I was a whole new person and I was trying to find out who I was. I was also starting to realize that the students were more conformist and "square" and a new generation of students were starting to come in, and I was closer to that generation of students than the older generation of students. I thought these students were nice and they looked like they were my "speed" than the other guys.
It was a very quiet and lonely year - I was trying to find myself and it looks like I was trying to fit in, and to find out who I was. I was still in a mess. That summer was a hard summer and there was a lot of confusion- it looks like I was exploring many things and trying to find out who I was.
Then that fall, I got a higher medication and I was starting to get a clearer picture of who I am and I am starting to get pretty focused, but I am still trying to figure out who I am. It looks like I am trying to get a job and I might be doing many things to explore my idenity. But it looks like I am starting to get a pretty good picture of who I am - it looks like I am a person who likes music, tends to be on the conservative side and really like family values - it look like I am a fairly conservative person that has standards. I could be pretty smart too and I have some ideas about things. There are many different views to choose from but the more conservative, middle class lifestyle is what I am most comfortable with. It looks like I should start to develop some hobbies to see who I am truly am.
It looks like my 20th year is a pretty growing up year and it looks like my 21st year is going to be a lot more stable year. It looks like things are starting to be put together and I am starting to get a better concept of myself. It looks like I am gaining a lot of self-confidence as well.
It looks like I am ready for dating and romance when I am 21. Not drinking, but it looks like I might be interested in romance in the future. I'll probably find someone at work or during my St. Scholastica classes that are going in the same thing as me, and have the same personality. I tend to be a pretty shy person, but can be pretty friendly if I want to.
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