In one month, a whole new life is going to begin. Of course, I'll be going to the same school and I will be going to the same apartment, but it looks like there is going to be a lot of preparation in the next months for a whole new beginning. It looks like I went across a long journey, but it seems like I am going to reach the destination and I am going to move forward.
I got the college acceptance letter in the e-mail process, and than eventually I am going to start the registering for classes and my parents are going to pay the bill. Then the books are to be bought and I am going to be ready to roll.
This is going to be a lot more defined than my liberal arts degree - I am actually going to be studying something for a job and I am going to be going into a whole new path. I am no longer going to be a teenager, but I am going to be a young adult. Actually, I was far past being a teenager even past about the year 18, but I still am a teenager at heart at sometimes and sometimes I am going to be a child at heart. There are a lot more responsibilities of being a young adult, but eventually I am going to find out these responsibilities are going to have many rewards.
I can see high and happy times once I am in my 20s and my 30s. By about the time I am 30 or so, I should be in a house, married, and having kids, along with having a pretty good career living the American dream. Life is going to be good but I got a lot to go to get to that point.
It looks like I haven't really focused on the romantic relationships and I haven't really gotten a job, which makes me sound like I am a loser in life. But at least I am getting a college education and I am starting to get a path in life, and at least I am living independently (partially) and having the ability to drive. But there is a lot of growing up to do and a lot of experiences to encounter, so it is time for me to get cracking.
I can see romantic relationships are easily going to be a possibility - I just need to start to get to know some girls and I might need to get out of my comfort zone. I think the idea I am getting a very good education through a very high quality college might gain some self confidence and improve my lease in life. It looks like it is time to bury the past and look into the future. The past is the past and what happens, happens. I don't think romantic relationships or anything like that crossed my mind when I am in high school. I wanted to get a girlfriend but I don't think I was thinking outside of the box and was only interested in certain blonde girls. I was probably idolizing more over some blonde on TV like Hilary Duff than an actual teenage relationship.
I don't remember what was on my mind in the high school years, but I was pretty normal, trying to find myself. But it looked like my parents had pretty strict standards on what I wear and what I do, and I did not have access to a drivers license and whatnot, so it was very hard to find myself. I didn't have fast enough internet so I didn't really have time to find myself.
It looked like that all through high school I was in a fantasy world. At least I had a desire to join a sport to fit in, but it looked like I did not have any interest in fitting in or finding myself at the beginning of high school. It looked like I was one of these kids that kept to myself, playing the Sims, etc. But I did join the track team, which increased my desire to fit in and it did get me out in the community.
But that was the old days and the old days are done. I basically think my college years are my adolescene and I am finally going to get things squared away when I get out the door when I am 22 or 23, when I am a true adult. Then I am for sure going to start working on romantic relationships. I should start working on romantic relationships right now; but relationships in general. I should try not to be that antisocial and it time for me to get out in the world. I have been suggested to do some volunteer work, which will give me some experience with the public and I won't be as shy around people. I have a whole life ahead of me if I put my mind to it.
The next month I am going to get the summer established. I am getting talks with the counselors and I am going to set up some volunteering. I need some job experience and I need to get out with the public, and try to make me more social in a world of a twenty something.
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