The prom

It has been years since I had been to the prom, and I did went single to the prom (what a loser but I had a hard time finding a date) but I am looking at the prom at a different perspective.  I had grown up a lot in the last few years and I had found out what the prom really is and how I can get a date to the prom.

It looks like it is very easy to get a date to the prom these days.  I had watched the couples and kept track of who picks who for the couples.  It looks like the couples look very similar to them in many way.  It looks like tall goes with another tall person, short goes with another short person, blonde with another blonde, brunette with another brunette.  It looks like the dates you get to the prom are actually very similar to each other in many ways, even in socioeconomic status.  It looks like the more popular and more expensive students go together and the poorer students go together.  Similarity looks like it is key for the prom and is probably in real life.

It looks like need to not put on an act and be yourself in school.  Teenagers is a time where you are finding yourself and trying to experiment, but it looks like if you are happy with who you are, it is easier to find a date.  It looks like in high school that I was trying to find myself even senior year - it looks like I did not know who I was or I had an idea of who I was but I did not have a realistic idea of who I am.  Now I have a better idea of who I am and it might be a little bit better to find a date.

It looks like by the time I was a senior in high school, it looks like I was experimenting with many things, but it seems like I was trying to be like some of the rapper and stuff I see on TV.  It looks like that in my school there was not too many people who are of the urban/gangsta subculture because we are in a rural, small town.  It it looks like I didn't realize that some of the people in the urban/gangsta subculture are involved in things are illegal and not cool, such as stealing, gangs, murder, and rape, which is a lot of crimes.  A lot of rap music involves many things such as drugs and prostitution, which is something that I should not be involved in, and is highly illegal. 

I should understand who I was was - I was a middle class teenager.  It looks like I was trying to be in worse condition than I actuallly was - I was underrating myself and it might be selfesteem issues.  It looks like I am more emo than gangsta and it seems like I am not seeing things the way they are.  It seems like I was in a fantasy world and I was not seeing things the way they are, and not seeing things realistically.  I think other girls see me more realistically and probably are interested in me as a date as they find out what I am interested in realistically.

It looks like I am a middle class teenager that likes music and likes to fool around with music, is involved with band and choir, and is involved in church, probably of conservative values - that sounds pretty normal.  But it looks like I am overfocusing on something that I am truly not - I am being a poser or a wannabe.  They probably seen my parents and my parents interests, and it looks like I am putting on some act.

I think I should also work on some assertiveness or self-confidence.  It looks like I am going after girls that are not interested in me.

I also had to have some quirks ironed out as well, unless I had found a quirky date that are socially the not mature and trying to put on an act just like me.  There is probably somebody like that and I could of had a date.

But fast forward to now - it looks like I could very easily found a date.  I probably could of easily hitched on to some of the girls if I conform, follow the rules, and don't put on an act, and be mature.  The prom is to test how mature and how you act in social situations.

There are a lot of girls that are similar to me when I don't put on an act.  One thing is that when I don't put on an act, I could be pretty intelligent, etc.  I always thought that was not to be intelligent and that's nerdy.  But you can be intelligent and not nerdy.  Nerdy is when you are smart but don't get it socially - some people could be smart and get it socially as well.  It looks like I was pretty quirky and don't know who I was.