It looks like I am finally wrapping up on my 20th year and it is time for me to start my 21st year. It looks like tomorrow, for all practical purposes will be the beginning of my 21st year as it is setting the stage for what is going to happen during next year. My mom will pay the bill for St. Scholastica tomorrow which will officially make me ready to attend classes along with buy some textbooks. She is also planning on getting my Pro Tools ready and I'll probably get a good resume typed out. It looks like the stage is set for my 21st year.
My 21st year will start with a nice friendly talk with the counselor to get some plans set up for the summer and some employment.
I am predicting my 21st year is going to be a very good year. I am predicting that I will finally get my first job this year probably about the late summer or fall. I will at least be doing something and I'll be chugging along with the Scholastica program along with wrapping up with the CLC classes that I need to take. I am also predicting that I will be involved with an relationship or at least some romance with someone this year as well, most likely during the winter or the spring. It looks like I'll find someone either at work or in my Scholastica classes - or I might suck on to somebody that I always wanted to suck on to.
I don't think I was ready for romance - it is very hard to stick with anyone if you don't have a job and you don't have the best transportation, along with not seeing anyone too often to cause any intimacy. Of course, I have the internet but the relationships on the internet are not the same as real life relationships.
It looks like I do value relationships but I do need to get out a little bit more. To get to know anyone from the area I am living in, I need to probably hang out all the time and to be known a little more. It is really hard to get to know anyone by just attending classes and going home during the weekend, and going to Wal Mart once a week. I could at least ask someone on a date to Wal Mart or something like that for a start.
The thing is that I need to be more active and outgoing. I am a 20 something and I am starting to get good looking. 20 somethings value relationships as much as teenagers - even more. But there are many things that are better with 20 somethings than teenagers. Teenagers are not as respected as much and they are treated like little kids - they tend to have an attitude and are self-centered. 20 somethings are more down to earth than teenagers, but really they are not much different. Teenagers - at least mature teenagers should be a lot similar to 20 somethings in many ways.
It's about time for me to value relationships a little more. I tend to be quiet and lonerish since I get into a rut, but this needs to stop. I have to make up my mind - should I be this quirky space cadet ADHD kid that sit in his room sitting on the internet watching random YouTube videos and fantasizing about the girls he is not getting with a messy bedroom not getting anywhere, thinking about the universe or whatever, or want to be some guy that actually has a job or at least involved with the community, getting good grades, earning some money, and getting the ladies like a 21 year old should be. The choice is mine. I probably should not be the space cadet computer geek that loses everything that has it's head up his rectal area that whines about not going to his high school prom.
If I want to change - it is time for me to change and I can change tomorrow by doing the simpliest things.
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