21 years has passed

21 years has passed since I was born...today I can officially drink and I officially can get married, and I can do just about anything.  Since about 3 years ago I was technically legal but even at the age of 21 I have a lot of growing up to do.  It is about time for me to grow up and to be treated like anyone else - I have been milking this childhood thing for too long but it does get kind of boring.  It looks like I am desiring to do many mature things such as dating and driving, and getting a job - these things teenagers and adults can do, but maybe I might be truly ready for dating.

Dating will be one of the things I want to do.  I am pretty normal for my age and getting a job - I haven't really have a date in my life and I haven't have a job in my life, unless I do count some of the volunteer things as dates and wait a minute - maybe I did date someone back then.  It depends on what you consider a date.

I haven't really had an serious relationship and I haven't really had sex.  But there is the risk of STD's and all that stuff, and getting a STD is like a death sentence.  You can be done and you probably won't be going to a good place unless you get your sins forgiven.  It's like - God, I couldn't help it but you biologically made sex feel good but why you have a rules against have sex before you are married. It doesn't make any sense.  But getting STD's might be very rare if you know what you are doing, and the chances are probably very low, but it  looks like there is a chance that you might have one.

I can see some very fun and happy times coming, and it is time to get my act together.  I should start to be more friendly to girls and friendly to people in general.  This mousy and expected people to do things for me is not going to get me anywhere, and I see this with not getting employed.  I know the ecomomy is low but it is time for me to get off my butt and start wanting to do things for other people - this will solve a lot of my problems.

Relationships are made with a connection and I need to have a connection.  One person likes me and another likes me back - playing cat and mouse just like on the playground is not going to do this and this is very childdish activities.  I probably need to start getting to know some girls and it seems like it is very hard to get to know girls outside of the classroom unless you spend a lot of time with them.  I'll probably meet someone with a job or with volunteer work, or most likely in my classes.  I am taking classes in social psychology and that is going to solve all my problems, and I should actually apply some of these skills.

The counselor in school has suggested to me in need to get some skills with working with the public before I get a job.  A lot of jobs past a certain age is going to work with people of all types