This year I have been invited to a Halloween party. Whoop de ding. But I haven't been invited to a Halloween party in the last 10 years. The last Halloween party was in 2003 and the latest is 2013. It looks like I am having a similar pattern to my 7th grade year, but a flip flop.
Back in my 7th grade year, there was strong optimism for my future in high school - things are going to go smoothly but it looks like things had started to fall apart during the course of the year. Of course, it is puberty and the hormone changes, but the beginning of 7th grade marks the end of childhood and a beginning of a new life - the teenage life. At the beginning of 7th grade I was liked, but I started to become more and more odd. I started my transition to puberty right at the beginning of 7th grade and things started to fall apart.
7th grade was sort of the awkward transitional period but I was still well liked during that period. I did go through 7th grade pretty smoothly and it was one of these years nothing seem to happen. I know this is a decade ago and a lot of 7th grade was wiped from my memory, but it started to come back when I am invited to this Halloween party.
The early part of 7th grade I went to a school dance - it was a different form of music I didn't care for and the different style of dancing that I did not get the concept of. I was sort of a flop at that school dance; which I was pretty awesome at but I did not get this new style of music. I was a weird style of music but it seems like that style of music was hip-hop, which was popular during the 1990s and that time. Then I went to the Halloween party and it was so-so. I was a flop at that party too. I was sort of a dud. I don't remember lots of 7th grade but it was a time for change - it looks like 7th grade I wanted to hang on to childhood while the rest are moving on to the teenage life. It was a new lifestyle I did not get the concept of. But the teenage lifestyle was not something that I expected to be - I thought it was a 1950s style lifestyle where you go to the prom, etc. I have been told about in school that teenagers did things that they were not supposed to do.
I started to adjust to the teenage life around the end of 8th grade, but I haven't really gotten into it about 10th grade. I had spent a lot more of the teenage life during the college years than the high school years.
Fast forward the clock- now it is 2013 and I am at a similar scenario to 7th grade. 7th grade was a end of an era and a new beginning, which this year is an end of a era and a new beginning as well. Ten years has passed - ten years of awkwardness has passed and now I am experiencing a similar pattern as 7th grade, but not in a falling apart nature, but in a improving nature.
I had a very optimistic view about the teenage world in elementary school - high school was something to look forward too and it was going to be fun. The only things that I was worried about 7th grade was 2 things - being forced to take a shower in the 7th grade PE class and then having a vaccination. But when I got there - I didn't know there was a transitional period from the "playa" era I had in elementary school to the quiet, awkward period of the teenage years. Of course, the teenage years were not that bad but I am starting to get this transition again in 2013. At the beginning of the year was a dark and hopeless view of the future, but in reality, things are very brightening. It has been a progressive era and then, out of the blue, I am invited to another Halloween party, exactly 10 years apart from the 7th grade. This sounds like a random occurrence but I am starting to show hope for the future. This party that I am going is going to be a mark of something - another new dawn of a new era. I seen a very brightening outlook each week - opportunities come every week and problems are solved, instead of the formation of new problems that happened during the 7th grade year. It has been a long 10 years and it was pretty tough, but there is a period of new hope coming in the horizon.
Now, the current condition shows that many things from my past are inexistent. A lot of people from my hometown will not even know me anymore - there are even different businesses than there was 10 years ago. 7th grade was the last time my grandparents were in good condition - now they are all gone and my family is starting to fall apart and starting to go in there own ways. I am in a different time - a different era. Maybe it is time to move on. It is a fresh new beginning - a fresh start. I have been holding on to a past that has frittered away.
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