I have been keeping a diary this year and I have been writing down the events that happened for each day. It seems like the events seem mediocre from day to day, but you can have a bigger picture of what is happening in your life. These small details in life seem to be boring, but if you clump these details into something bigger, things seem to have a pattern. Of course, you have the usual routine and repetition that you have, but actually too much routine and repetition starts to make thing boring and you don't progress in life.
Each day has a purpose and each day has something that develops into a longer goal - the longer goal I don't know unless I look back and then things seem to make sense. You have a reason for the events that happen in that order, and I believe that these events in this order for a reason. I should bless myself about each day - even though some days are dull, there are some reason and some purpose for that day. I was destined to wake up during that day for a purpose.
It looks like the drudgery events that I go through - the events I regret at the beginning are actually experiences that are needed for a good thing in the future. There might be a reason why I am encountering with these people and meeting these people at that certain time - every encounter that I make do have a purpose. I do enjoy the purpose for each day - each day does have a purpose.
Now I am getting older and it is time for me to show the world what I know and what I got - I might have a lot of expertise and wisdom on many things I regret from experiences - a lot of the wisdom that I got might be used to show somebody that I care for them. Now I am focusing myself on somebody else's world instead of my own world - I could just imagine living in this person's world and I realize that some people have it pretty tough and some have it pretty good. I am realizing how lucky I am really am with some of the most basic things you need such as decent food to eat and a roof over my head, along with a comfortable temperature to live in. These things cost money and I have to earn these things, which makes me appreciate them - it is not all a given. Nothing is a given - there is some exchange. Everything has an exchange and not everything is one sided.
I am starting to realize the truth and things are going to get better. Each day is going to have a purpose and I am wondering the purpose. The most regrettable moments might be the most grateful moments if you think about it. Usually after the most tragic, something good happens. A good example is the 9/11 attacks, which was one of the most tragic days in US history - it was almost the end, we were doomed, but actually we were not. The 9/11 attacks after the tragedy was even a good thing. Although many people died, this started to get people to group together and bring the country together - the country was a community, a whole. December 21, 2012 was a scare for the whole world to end and everyone was preparing and waiting for this date - when the date came, nothing happened except there was a lot of community - it brought people together because of a common fear. This irrational fear made us realize something - be afraid of your own death because you never know - live life as it comes. We have been afraid of our own death and you can't predict your own death - it just happens. It will come when it least expected. A lot of things are like that.
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