I think I am approaching the end of a dark age...there is light at the end of the tunnel

The college life has been a period of drastic change and growing up, and the last year has seem to be sort of a major dark era and a change in my life.  It has been one of my more darker and more depressing times in my life, and it was a time I was starting to feel unloved. But the light might be at the end of the tunnel and brightness is going to come.  Actually, good times are going to roll - signs are starting to come, especially with the college degree - I have been getting very good grades in my college classes and this came without much effort.  This is probably something that I might be naturally good at and making a lot of money with, and there is a future approaching me. I have a feeling that I have been in a dark corner in my life and it is going to get a lot brighter.

It has all started out when my home almost got flooded - thank God I  survived that flood, but I did not help the other people.  I basically ditched it and went back to the apartment  - this was a situation that everyone had to be involved in and everyone talked about; young and old were in the same boat and even at my young age, I might of had some good ideas to help them get through this.  But, I ditched it and did not help with the flood.

Then I went through a punishment and ditching this flood probably created a dark age by God.  God was not happy with me so  He decided to punish me.  Of course, I went through 2 funerals and that was something that required moral support, but I did not give the moral support and help that they needed, especially after all the care that my 2 grandparents have given to me and I turned into this.

I didn't value the car and it got smashed up....it was constantly dirty and I didn't care.  Then after my grandpas funeral...I passed out and I couldn't drive for about 3-4 months, which forced me to drive a bike.  I got some exercise and it wasn't bad, but it made me feel a lot more delayed.  I did eventually get my car back, better than it was before.

I feeling that the dark age was probably a result of not valuing my dad.  I have been too dependent on my mom and not the other side of the genetic code.  I was pretty attached to my dad back in the day, then I went through to the natural rebellion.  But now I am starting to show life consequences and dad may be right.  Maybe his weird wisdom might start getting something that  I really desire.  I probably wanted to go a different path - naturally - different interests, everything but it looks like my world is falling apart.  He might have wisdom is his weird ways and some day I might see the light.  I think my relationship with him is going to improve; even though he has the differences, he might be very helpful indeed.  I think I am starting to get the message.