I have been keeping a diary for a few years, trying to keep track of my life. But instead of finishing the year, it just decided to end at that certain point - October 17, 2013. There must be something about October 17, 2013 - this sounds like a last day of something. That day seems like an ordinary day, but there might be a significant point on that day or maybe the period around October 17, 2013. The new book begins today on October 18, 2013 and it looks like there might be a purpose - maybe it is a time to start fresh. New book, new lease on life - it is time to start fresh and maybe change my ways.
I can see the time in the previous diary was chaos and confusion, but things seem to look pretty fun around October of this year. There was a lot of storming around; a lot of thought but there must be something that supposed to end on October 17, 2013. I went back to a high school football game on October 16 and it was one of my big sports rivalries - I got cold and I was not that interested - it was something that was "who cares", at least it is entertainment. I got other things on my mind. I had the 4G on my smartphone and I was spending time browsing the Web instead of watching football - something that was confined to my home when I was in high school that was attached to a dial-up connection - now I got access to 4G and I can use the Web anywhere. In this place full of people, I did not know them and I was starting to look at the internet, and then I was reading my old publication of the school paper. It was a different era and it was a comparison to something that we were taking so seriously - doesn't this really matter. It is just entertainment and in the reality - doesn't it really matter. I had a different thing on my mind at my time - something that was more important than what is surrounding me and even that - doesn't it really matter.
It looks like I am starting to accept my life over there and I am starting to move on - I had moved on and I shouldn't look back. I am a different person now - about 5 years ago I was going nuts about this but now it is doesn't it really matter. I was more worried about a different issue - what is going on with the government default than the game - I was checking the news. It looks like I am maturing .
But really if I think about it - doesn't it really matter. But it looks like all the chaos and confusion I went through ended out on the same day to help somebody and somebody that I wanted to help. I had lots of wisdom and I am starting to spread my wisdom to somebody else. I probably have something that was going on with my mind.
It looks like the chaos and confusion was starting to die out and it looks like things are going to go a different direction. The book ends about October 17, 2013 - some random date. A month ago I was different - my view has changed in a month. I had changed a lot in a month. Now it looks like I have to start another book and it is not the predictable new years day, new beginning book - it looks like it is ending at a odd ball time in the book. I have to get another book to keep track of another chapter of my life. It may seem like another head up your butt day and I have to write a report for college - but this report might start getting to me think about the realities of life. This time period might be a time period about the realities of life - time is changing. I had changed a lot since about the beginning of the year - it is the same era but a different era. The summer was kind of a quiet era - but it was a reality check. It was pretty lonely and I was searching around for an outlet, but it looks like there was somebody that was in your face that likes me and supports me, but I was in my own world searching. I was combing the world with a bike and starting to realize I can see what is going on with a bike than a car - I can explore the world at a closer level.
Now I am sitting on this computer and listening to music - this sounds like a random end, but there might be a new significance. This sounds like an ending and a new beginning. Or it looks like we are moving to a new beginning. Maybe I am realizing the truth - what is truly happening. I am listening to the song Crossroads by Bone Thugz and Harmonies when I am writing this. This might be some inspiration to this. Something is happening like it is a transition and the transition is gradually happening over in a course of a month and it looks like not much is changing. I think it is a clearer mind or somebody is guiding me.
There are probably going to be more and more happening. Gotta see what happens.
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