I have been looking back at my high school years by looking at the photo albums and I am going to give an honest perception of what life was like as a teenager. It looks like a lot of my teenage life was involve chasing after grandparents and I don't seem to mind it at all. I was very close to my grandparents and I cared a lot about them. One of them died about 2007 and that grew me up a lot; I realize I have to start growing up and starting blending in with the crowd and act like a mature responsible young adult, instead of just sluffing around and going nowhere. Another one of them was starting to get flaky and senile, along with another one was starting to get a case of Alzheimers. I was getting educated about the world around me that getting old is something that happens to everyone, and your lifestyle depends on how you are getting old. There were some depressing moments but it helps me realize that everyone, no matter who you are, is going to go through this: you are going to age and you are going to die, and you should make the most of what you are doing in between time.
I had learned the effect of what causing my grandparents to go downhill. My grandma was a heavy smoker and a heavy drinker, and a very lazy person that was very self centered - just like many teenagers along with whine about everything and I learned what you get for these bad habits - your brain starts to rot away. I was trying to get my grandma to stop smoking, but she kept smoking. It wa annoying me. I was also experiencing the reality of going to the resthome with dementia and I was also dealing with strokes and other ailments of old age, all which were caused by bad habits of the young. My grandpa smoked since he was a teenager, just for peer pressure, and this is what he wound up to be. Almost all of my grandparents were effect of peer pressure and this was a lesson that I learned at a young age about smoking and drinking to be cool.
These moments were some serious moments that I have been going through, but that might be shaping the way I am. Smoking and drinking should be in moderation, but I think it is best to avoid it. Puffing a cigarette is just gross along with drinking some ishy tasting stuff that is going to rot your brain - but it is the media is glamorizing smoking and drinking and making people do it.
My teenage life was very healthy for the most part - I got exercise by going to the weight room and being on the track team, and I was involved with the world of music. But it seems like I was having my head up my butt in a lot of things such as career. It seems like a lot of my high school life involve doing some creative, fun things. I was trying to write music and I got even involved into filmmaking. I was involved with drama and the yearbook, and I like to dance. I was using creative expression and that was very healthy when I was a teenager. I was also involved with my church and my community, which was very healthy.
My teenage life had went by very smoothly and it seem like I was not involved in any drugs, sex, or alcohol. I probably had romantic crushes on girls but I did not really have that my sexual thoughts. I was a pretty clean kid, but I was trying to fit in with the crowd. I look like I was a more conformist kid but it seemed like I was sucked into the "gangsta" lifestyle when I was trying to fit in. But I did not understand even though it was commercialized and glamorized at that time, there was a lot of things involving sex, drugs, and you know, the bad stuff. I don't think I was really a bad sort - it looks like I was a kid who was trying to fit in with the crowd and trying to find out who I am.
I had an undiagnosed ADHD and that was seen in the classroom, even though kids did not make a big deal out of it. Some kids though it was cool and some kids thought it was drool. It was most likely seen through the teachers when I am not handing in assignments, etc. and I seem to be dressing in clothes that seem to be out of touch (not getting details that well) and seem to sometimes forget to adjust my collar and zip my pants and clear up my acne. That was starting to become a hinder to social life. I seem to also talk very loud and not seem to follow exactly what people are saying in their conversations. Now I am fixed and seems like things are just fine. It looks like there was a lot of people with ADHD and it looks like not too many made a big deal about it.
There were lots of fun times as a teenager and there were some many good memories - there were fun years for the most part but I needed to have some time to grow up. The family crisis help me and help me shape me who I am. I needed to have some learning experiences too. I may not be the most popular person out there, but I wasn't a loner or anything like that. Kids did like me when I was me and not putting on an act. I probably didn't know who I was and I was trying to figure out who I was, but if I was focused I was starting to figure out who I am.
I did not have a job as a teenager so I did not have much money to experiment with different lifestyles but maybe it is not really a good idea either - some of the people at the high school were freaks that I did not know or did not want to get to know. I am still assessing my teenage life and I am probably going to reassess what was truly going on my teenage mind.
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