I have a sense of optimism of what the adult world is going to be for me and it is going to be different from the teen world. It looks like I am in the "emerging adulthood" era, which is the era where I am still a kid but not yet a true adult. When I am going to be truly an adult is when I am financially independent and make decisions on my own, along with contribute to society. It seems like I am sucking onto my parents but I want to become more and more independent.
Having my own apartment is pretty cool and it will be cooler yet to pay for it. I'll have my own stuff and I'll live the way I want to live and I will develop myself as an individual. I probably want to start dating and getting into relationships as well.
There are a lot of things I can do and I can develop myself as an individual. I am going to be working minumum wage as I scrounge around in school but eventually I want to have higher pay so I can have better things and live life the way I want to live it. No more messing around with my parents and I seem to have different ideas than my parents.
My lifestyle is going to be like this - I am going to work into a place and I am going to get my pay. Lets say I work in a restaurant or a store - I can be working there, collecting money and then eventually I'll be paying it on stuff I never payed before. I probably don't know what to buy first but I got some ideas, but I should just stuff a lot of it in the bank before I decide to do with it later. A lot of the stuff I'll be buying first will be home improvement, etc. home decoration, etc. just to make the place look nice and practical things. But we have the basic survival needs such as shelter, heat, food, water, and the internet - I probably can handle no TV before no internet.
I do have my dreams and my wishes of what I want to be in the future, but I need to get some money first. It seems to be a struggle and I have a feeling that I am never going to be independent, but eventually I will. Sucking on mom and dad is not good either, and I do like my parents, but I realize the differences I have with them. The tend to be old fashioned and I have to act more old fashioned around these parents.
It seems like I have romance on my mind, but in order to have romance, I need to have money for dates and transportation, especially the girl is far away and in her different world. We don't have the internet but it is hard to have long distance relationships.
I don't think it is going to be that bad in the future and there is going to be a lot of adjustment, but it is going to be a different world. I should stop worrying about my past high school regrets and move on - what it is probably seeing things not the right way and making a big deal about what is not there and what is truly there.
College life has been pretty peaceful and I have not had many problems in the classroom and it seems like I am making pretty good friends. The only problem I have is the cleaning and I am improving.
But during these time, I got God to help me through these moments and guide me and tell me what I should be doing, and what I should not be doing. God knows who should I date, where should work, and I should evaluate my God given talents to contribute to society and live the life I want to live on this Earth.
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