It looks like I am having the girl taken by someone else deal but I don't think it is going to stop me but I should think more honestly. How often I do see a girl in order to have an intimate relationship with someone? I only see girls about 2-3 times a week when I have class. I know this girl, according to the girl, likes someone else and I am fine with that, but I haven't really gotten to get to know the girl that well which is okay.
Look at my life and look at my schedule. It is really hard to find intimate relationships at this time. I am actually unemployed so I have a hard time paying for the dates and traditionally the guy is supposed to pay for the date. And I am very busy with schoolwork and classes to have some intimate relationships. I am in community band and I also come home to see my folks during the weekend instead of hanging out on campus, so I don't have a chance to scout around.
I think I need to focus my energy more on finding a job and trying to develop a future career. I think that is what the good Lord wants me to to do. I am planning on going to St. Scholastica which is a crucial time for me to get caught up and rolling with education along with trying to find a summer job. I don't think I can have it all. And this girl might be a flava of the week but it does not mean I don't have to close the book on this girl - I can always get to know her as a friend.
I do have a feeling that romance is on the horizon when I start to develop an idea of who I am and I start making some money. I will probably find someone at work because that is where I am going to be spending most of my time. Interactions will become natural. I don't think school is going to pull it but I think this girl is a preview and a reminder that girls are interested in me and I should not be afraid to start looking. This is not a time to start an emo session - I should try to develop who I am as an individual; I am going to find the right one. I should try to keep an open mind and maybe the good Lord was trying to tell me something. I am actually not an ugly guy so I can get a chance with a girl - I should not try to be so eager and desperate, and start liking the girl more than just for physical arousal. I am doing the smart move and writing my thoughts onto a blog and then sleeping through it.
I don't think I am going to be in bachelor mode - there are a lot of girls waiting here so I might as well work on the next one on the list and to keep an open mind. It is time for me to work on getting a job and getting my life to move foreward - I need money to pay for dates and I am pretty sure there will be girls wherever I work. There are girls everywhere.
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