My roles

I am going to be 21 pretty soon and it is time for me to make some plans in the future.  Only God and myself will know what is going to happen in the future but I need to have some direction, some goal.  Pretty much all my life I have been in a set path and my main goal is to go through the high school world.  But it seems like after that I have the freedom to choose what I want to do and I have the ability to make my own decision.  It looks like I am still in a high school mode but I need to get exposed to the freedom and opportunities of the adult world that I never had to offer.  If I had the money, I can do anything I want but the money is the clamp on everything along with the amount  of resources.  We live in a world towards of competition and I need to make myself competent in a competitive world - the "good job, good job" is not going to work in this world.

Each time I get my door slammed onto me, another door is open and the more I learn about the world.  I get rejected from a job, that doesn't mean I can't do that job - it is the economy and second thought, would I like to do that job anyway.  The same thing with the competitive economy of relationships as well.

It looks like I have been in this high school world for too long but the high school world does have a point - fitting in and popularity does make it easier for me to respect authority, which will make me get  into a job.

I have looked into the college and I have seem to best of both worlds. On the Monday, Wednesday, Friday world, it is an high school environment and it looks like it has the cliques and the stereotypes, etc.  But on a Tuesday and Thursday world, it is more of an adult world.  Everyone is dressing in their role - the nurses are wearing their nursing outfits and they hang together, the automotive guys are wearing their outfits, the cops are wearing their outfits - everyone is having their role and I am trying to find my role as well.  I  don't have a definitive role but I will find out what the degree I am doing is actually doing and I am going to try to dress for that role.  I am done with the high school role - now I am going to have to start establishing a real world role.  When I am done with my work role, I am going to try to establish my weekend role and that is probably established by the money I make and the things I get interested in.  Lets say I am interested in hunting, I can dress the hunting guy, or fishing, I could be fishing guy.  I like music but I should dress the music role of the genre of music I am making and the lifestyle I represent.


There are many choices for me to choose and God knows what I am going to be interested in.  When I have the money, I should try new things and try to establish my role.  I might like cars, or fishing, or music, art, whatever.

But if I haven't establish my role, I should dress in the socioeconomic class I am in.  Richer people can have the nicer, richer looking clothing and the poorer people, well, will look like they are on welfare.

There are some experimenting I should do but something should come out and people should start to figure out who I am.