What is love to me?

For a while, I am just thinking about just typing about various topics to get things off my chest. Maybe this will help me find myself a little farther and to find my true identity, along with find out what my views of things in life.  I had tried to define friendship and what I think it is to be a friend, but I am also trying to define love as well.

I never been in love, but that is debatable.  It only depends on what you consider love to be.  I find love and friendship basically the same thing, but love as a different twist.  There is a difference between love and lust.  Love means you'll like the person - you have that bond between that person but lust means you are just horny and you'll go after just about anyone.

I never had a girlfriend, but I know when love is going to hit me.  You can't really find love - it just happens.  It is something about that person that makes you make the hairs on your body just stand up, you have this nice tingling sensation in you.  I think it actually hit me with a few people - I just look at that person in the first glance and I feel like "that's it".  She is for me - I love her.  Love is different from looking at some hot blonde chick with hot boobs or something like that - it goes a little bit farther. Love means you care about this person; that person becomes a part of you.   Someday it'll just hit me - it may be just a good friend or it may be some girl that just it.  But I notice the ones that I fall in love with will probably be someone that remind me of myself.  A girl version of me - someone that just gets me for just the way I am and I don't have to put on an act, because she just loves me anyway.

But it looks like I am working too hard - maybe I need to let love find me because love is something that is practical and has a formula for it.  Love involves deep emotion and compassion, a spiritual connection with someone.  Maybe it is someone that God chooses for me.  Maybe it is someone that I truly need.

If I want to find love, I can't define on eHarmony or all that crap.  It is not going to work that way.  Love is something that hits you at the strangest times and maybe at the people that you don't truly expect.  If I want to find love, I should go deeper into myself - into the subconscious; the soul.  I should meditate or ask God who I truly love.  Love is something you get from the heart, not the head.