I am very anxious and nervous about the world around me - I am getting closer and closer to the "real world" and away from the school world which I have been in since I was in preschool. I was in the real world when I was a baby, but I did not have much concept about the world around me - I probably looked around and explored the world in the most simplest of ways, and the things that fascinated me the most were the toys. The toys were symbols of many real world objects but just scaled down - I started to have a better concept of the world by playing with toys.
I have been playing with toys such as Legos and Duplos - they were construction set pieces of toys that simulated life in the real world - you have the option of building homes and maneuvering around with people - they were like playing with dolls and I started to develop concepts on how the world works by playing with toys. The toys I was playing with were not the fantasy toys - it is not the video games and the Pokémon that the other children played with; probably the older children. I played with the traditional toys that helped me develop creativity.
I was playing with toys but the more I got exposed to media such as TV and the internet, I actually started to get less interested in the toy world. The digital world was the way for me to collect information - I have been using lots of information off the internet and I have been using the information to develop interests. The internet is full of stuff that I can learn and do. I have been exploring the wonders of the web during the college years - the teenage years I had more restricted internet access because my parents thought the internet was bad for young people and it is a free for all - but actually in a way the internet is a very educational tool that is going to impact our lives.
I have been dependent on the web and other people have been very dependent on the Web, and I have been using the Web to develop my concept of the "real world" and I have been developing a fear of the real world. The internet has been showing me a very negative view of the real world - it shows about all of life's struggles when you get out the door and that childhood has been permanently over when you enter the world of the internet. The internet is where childhood stays - there is a lot of 90s and 00s nostalgia on the internet along with nostalgia of other generations that make the younger age the better age and you get worse when you get older and enter the real world. You have more responsibility and your body starts to fall apart - but you have a payoff - you earn more better things that you just dreamed of when you are at a younger age, just in childhood. I have been passing through childhood and teenager life, but the next stage is the dreaded adult life. Actually I might of entered that life about 18 because 18 is the legal age but you don't have much of a chance to grow up - there are many things to learn about the world once I get older. In school you learn about the repetitive facts and figures without any meaning to why you need it in the "real world." You learn algebra which is used for developing abstract thought which is used in the "real world" but it is not taught in a concept that makes you think straighter. School doesn't teach you about the real world - they want you to just naturally figure it out yourself. The story of Columbus in 1492 is in the boring history textbooks but this might explain why you are here today but most people could care less about why we are here - we are simply here. History could explain there was a world before you and there is a world out there in the future - it probably shows us how we develop throughout time.
I think I should find a better concept of the world - the internet may have been showing a conception of the real world is fearful - it is probably the media. Being older is not cool - having youth is actually cooler. The movies and the internet has a fantasy about college life that is better than the real world - it is the more freedom and less responsibility that you have in the "real world" where everything is a continuous responsibility and loneliness. The college world promotes a fantasy environment where everybody is "equal" and the walls are breaking down - everyone is the same - but when you enter the real world you are in a world of separation - everyone is in their own world and everyone seems to clump together. Similar people will naturally group together and if you have enough similar people together, you are going to create a culture and a subculture - we are not that united but we are more divided in this cliquey world where everyone is "pickled jarred." College tries to promote the un-pickle jarred lifestyle but eventually people start pickle jarring each other. The social world is a complicated world to decipher but it seems to be pretty simple if you look at it in the big picture.
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