Living in a joyride

In the past month or 6 weeks, I have been living in a joyride at the wrong time. I know that graduation and moving on with life is going to be only about 6 months from now, which is a very short time from now, but it is going to be a very rapidly  changing time.  6 months ago was last May and I was just out for the summer - I was out in the "real world" for a small sample. I was starting to navigate the real world really well - I was starting to cook my own dinner and wash my own clothes; I had established some routines for cooking and cleaning, and my apartment was relatively clean. It was a quiet time but it was rather lonely, but it wasn't really that bad once I got used to it.  I was getting so used to living on my own partway that I was starting to dread roommates - who I am going to get which makes me rather uncomfortable.

That summer was a long and quiet summer, and that eventually ventured into the fall.  Then another joyride started to take place, and I was having so much fun, enjoying the college life that I was starting to neglect many other things that were important in life, such as proper nutrition and  cleaning, along with valuing my college education and what I am going to do in the future.  Of course, I could care less and I would like to start simple, but I probably won't want the simple living if I get used to it.  I am fearful about the future and I was excited about the future at the same time.

The improper nutrition resulted me to start feeling sick and starting to develop many mood swings, sometimes at dangerous level.  I had to be hospitalized for a short time because of the stress, which makes me start to realize that I need to value some things that I have been taking for granted.  I have been taking the car for granted for a long time, and I have been living without a car for about 3 months - riding a bike is not the same and I have to time myself for moving to certain locations to chase rain and darkness. I have  been ignoring some responsibility while I was having fun - I was starting to slack on my cooking skills and cooking my own food, making myself malnourished and my cleaning, especially with doing laundry, along with the education.  All I have been prioritizing is fitting in and having fun with some friends - of course friendship is important but there are other things that are just as important, which is eating healthy, which involves the extra responsibility of cooking and cleaning up my mess for health reasons.  Cooking and cleaning may be stodgy things that I don't want to do, but they are the basic things for survival and being healthy.  I should be a little more concerned about my appearance and the way I present myself as well - I can't just go out and buy new duds - I have to change the person from within.

I have been learning a lot of lessons and there are a lot more lessons to be learned.  I could be this cool guy and I could be a loser - looking healthy will make me cool - eating right and personal hygiene, exercise, all the things that the doctor tells you to do all the time is essential for being a cool person.  I was just focusing on text messaging, but not on the other things such as personal appearance and hygiene, along with changing the way I am within.

Of course, if I look closely, the friends that I know actually cook their own food and do their own laundry, clean up, etc. and they are just as cool - I should do it too.