One of my more stressful semesters are almost done!

It has been a wild ride, but it was in  way, a good one.  I have changed a lot in the last semester or so, and I am going to change some more.  This one may be one of the more stressful semesters in college I ever had, but this might be a good thing.  I need stress.  I need some responsibility.  It looks like I am just fooling around worrying about stupid stuff with nothing to do.  At least this stress keeps me on my toes and makes me grow up.  I need to grow up. Seems like I am trying to make things easy - I have been too busy moping around but now I am finally going to have some real stress and it looks like I have been doing a great job managing it.

I have learned how to ask for help because it looks like I am going to need some help.  There is a crunch coming up and everything is starting to bottle up.  Eventually I might explode but I am managing it very well.  The support I am getting in the college has been helping me a lot; now I am realizing that I need help and I am getting help.  Eventually things are going to fall into place but this stress keeps me going.  I need responsibility but I need some time to have some fun too.

There is a lot of things that are on my plate but I am learning how to prioritize what is important.  I am starting to realize what I am there for, to get an education and to get help so I can successfully learn how to deal with the real world.  There is a lot of things on my plate but it is part of my education to learn how to manage these things, and I am doing a great job.

I have been having problems with roommates but that is actually part of my education.  I am learning about what I value to live with; what I do want and what I don't want.  The stress in my education is figuring out what I am good at and what I am not good at.  It looks like I am having a hard time with biology means I am not really good at a biology related career; but I am good at classes such as sociology of the family and psychology, so I might be doing very well with a career in the sociology and the psychology related careers.

All of my struggles are actually good according to God.  I am going through these struggles with a purposes and eventually in the future, these struggles are here to help me.  I am now getting exposed to certain jobs that you can do with that certain degree; I might consider the support I am getting a career exploration class.   These crazy roommates might be a friendly reminder of what is going to happen in the future.  Everything seems to go with a purpose and all these crazy experiences are made to put together to something good.  This stress is actually a good thing and I think I need this stress.  I am learning and growing and maybe these "crisis" situations are supposed to be good things.

Things are improving right now and I am going through what I am supposed to go through.  I am 20 years old and I need to get things figured out, and to get my values straightened out, and right now my values are going to be based on my education.  It seems like I am always prioritizing romance and relationships - that is just animal instincts, but I think I need to go more than my animal instincts; I need to do something human.  Things are going to be mapped out and the time will come.  But I think I need to go through one stage til I go through the next stage.