I shouldn't look back

Every once in a while, I have been doing this a lot recently, I have been looking back at the music that I was "missing" in my childhood from the 1990s and early 2000s. But I should think of it, it is really not that great.  Of course, I want to hear what music and stuff sounded  like back then but I was not really exposed to it as well as I think I did to actually have nostalgia purposes.  A lot of that music is just a "background noise" that I heard just going shopping or riding in the car, and I have not payed much attention to it, or I could care less.  It is just music and I don't think I had true significant memories of enjoying these certain songs intentionally.  I am just looking back at music that I am not having true memories just out of curiosity which is just normal.  Some of it's good but I should not look back.  I am too young to look back.  I am only 20 years old; that does not mean I am an old codger already.  I have a life to live; a long life to live and I should start living instead of "sawing sawdust".  The 1990s were just my childhood; nothing spectacular.  It is fun to look back at it, but I have a feeling that better times are too come in the future.

I have a long life to live and things are just starting.  For most of the last 20 years I have been in a "stupor" to enjoy it which might be a good thing anyway.  Maybe I shouldn't really gotten involve with the "mess" that the other kids have been involved in when they are focused.  Now, it looks like I have better things to do and it is time to think in the present.  Things may be actually a lot better than I think because I am starting to get things screwed on; I was not that screwed on in the past.

I can listen to older stuff and watch the older stuff (Mariah Carey is pretty hot at 25 but now she is OLD and married with kids, Nick Cannon, at 40 years old) but I should live these older days.  There is probably way better time to come; it is time for me to develop new interested and get going on a future career, and forget about this old crap.