Things are to be mapped out

It looks like I have been impatient and I want certain things to happen, but I have a feeling that certain things are to be mapped out in my life.  It seems like these certain events in my life are in a order; even though it may appear to be some delays, there might be some purpose to some delay.  It looks like certain things are bad, but really everything is good in the eyes of God.  It looks like God has planned everything in my life and there are these certain event and people you meet are for a purpose.  Everything seems to connect and maybe it may appear random, everything is planned out in the right place at the right time.

I am always trying to predict the future and to set goals - that is the human iniative and that is good.  But it seems like when I get my door slammed on me, there might be the reason why the door has to be slammed on me for a purpose.

I was born to have certain problems, but these certain problems might be a good thing in life.  These problems might be made to show off the talents you have.  Lets say you have ADHD or something; ADHD people are annoying but their problems are made for great creativity and sense of humor, along with original, out of the box thinking that most focused people have.  I had probably have the quirks for a purpose - I might be inattentive and it might be a blessing to be inattentive, and the good Lord has decided for me to fix the problem at the right time.  Maybe he might know something if I got the problem fixed in high school, it might be more of a hinderance than a help, but maybe the ADHD stuff could be made to make a sensation in high school that students love and even some original, creative ideas that teachers love.

The good Lord probably knows when I should be dating and when should I be getting a job.  Maybe I need to suffer through this tough economic times to learn about myself and the world around me, along with improve myself.   These tough economic times had shaped me up and I am at the right time, getting educated about the world and preparing myself for the adult world.  Even though I have not been working, I have been learning a lot about myself and society in general, and how I can improve myself.  These tough economic times might also be giving a purpose for me as well and it will help me realize how I can help these people succeed.   Dating will not have prepared me for the adult world -  I would of been these head up my butt people walking around and hooking up - the good lord will probably want me to get my head screwed on before I start dating and maybe wait for the other girls to get their head screwed on.

The good Lord probably think it was a good time to learn how to drive in 2011 along with try to clean things up with the apartment.  The next thing I probably have to do is to start cleaning up some other quirks and it seems like I have improved a lot even in the last month.  I am probably more polite and considerate to other people, as well as more helpful, but I need to get off my butt a little more.  It might be time for me to open some doors and to push some chairs, work on my self presentation and my attitude, and  I probably will be a better person.  I should actually try to help other people or do other people a favor - I had recieved help all the time but I have not give too many people much help.   I might as well start doing a few things and the biggest thing might be helping to pitch in with the garbage, open doors, etc.  I feed the cat and he does his part by catching mice.

I might have to be a little more conformist as well, and try to be interested in the other people, and blend in, but not too much.  If I  suck up to someone else, I'll suck up to you.  There are a lot of things I need to work on and it looks like the Good Lord has it planned about now.