A spiritual era for me

When  I first started college, there was a lot of stress for me, but it was a period of find out meaning in my life.  I was going through a period of depression and I thought my life was worthless; but it was a period to find out what is really mattering - God.  I was trying to prove God and during that era, life was pretty secular.  We were going away from religion and the internet was going away from religion; secularism and agnosticism/atheism along with alternative spiritality was starting to become the mainstream.

Harry Potter and Twilight was doing something awful - glamorizing vampires and anything that was related to the denomic such as witchcraft.  Even though some teenagers like these films, it looks like it has created a rash of people are glamorizing the occult and making it as innocent as a children's fairytale.  I was not a fan of this stuff; it has shown I was having faith but I was starting to become a fan of other things such as numerology, astrology, and the like.  I wasn't into tarot cards but I didn't realize these were things of alternative spirituality.

The college was starting to thump many things such as being green and being diverse - multilculturism does not phaze me but I should of have an understanding of what was going on in other culture.  The college was a place where there were "diverse" people, which means every kook is out there.

With all these philosophical symbols being shoved at me, along with the life experiences, I was starting to realize what is going on and I was starting to go into a spiritual era.  I was starting to go into a trance; a fog but this trance was not bad.  It was a period of finding out who I am.

I had been growing up during the first 3-4 months of my college career - I was starting to realize what truly matters and what truly doesn't matter.  I was a different person than my high school.

I think  I had grown up a lot more than I did in high school.  I was for the most part this same person throughout the course of high school.  I might of gotten a little more self confidence when I got older, but I was pretty this same person.

But I had realized who I was starting to become in college and I am still trying to figure things out, and things are going to be okay.  There is a lot of work to do but I am getting there.  I am finally starting to figure it out; it was a long struggle but I am getting there.  I think it is different values being shoved on me that is helpful; things that I haven't heard all the time.  In high school, it was something more like it's all about you but in this new education; it is not all about you.

But this spiritual era for me was good for me and I have to thank God for giving that spiritual era for me.  There has been a lot of depression and whatnot, but I am finally getting through this and things are going to be great once again.  This social psychology has been very helpful for me and it was something that was starting to find out the solutions of all of my problems.  And another thing is Wal Mart - that seems to solve everything too.