Is this girl the real deal or she might be a so called "flava of the week"

I never truly was in a succesful relationship ever.  I never officially dated anyone, but I was pretty close a few times.  The closest  I had gotten with a relationship with a girl was maybe holding hands and a cuddle, and that didn't last that long, and that turned out to be a lot of drama, along with a big whine session about how I am a failure with relationships.

But that was back then and I seem to changed a lot in a year, and there might be a possibility of being in my first true relationship this year.  I wish I would and I hope that the work and the school is not going to bombard with it; which is mostly likely what it is going to do.  Maybe I need to spend less time at home and more time in the apartment, and need to grow up, etc.

I seen in the college there are a lot of girls and many of them will make great potential dates, but many of them are just going to be girls that will fade in the background and I won't have a chance to get to know them.

There are girls in the apartment as well but I hope they won't fade in the background and I might be this lonely recluse that don't fit.  I doubt I will if I change my ways.

I probably never had a successful date because I was sort of an introvert - I was some of these people that don't break the ice and have this irrational beliefs that I don't have to work on it because I am special and I can get any girl I want.  I think I need to quit thinking that girls are going to walk all over me and I need to start doing some things a little different - I need to start working on it.

It was very succesful yesterday talking to girls and that girl looks like she thinks I'm special.  But I had Wal Mart in the way today and I have Wal Mart in the way tommorrow, but tomorrow I am going to have a lot more time to meet these girls.  The Wal Mart schedule is not going to eat my evenings as much so I might have time to get to know these girls and the other people in general.

Then you have schoolwork and that might eat up any social life, unless I manage it well. These girls could be "study buddies" but really I think I need to find some ways to get to know them.

There is the irrational thought to get out of my head - I am not irrestistable like Austin Powers, etc....I need to work on it and I do need the strength.  I am not the best at flirting and I am introverted, but I do have an extraverted side if I want it to be and I can be pretty fun if I want it to be.  Lord, let the extravert side of mr