Everything is starting to fall into place

I don't think things have been that stable since I was in high school.  It seems like everything now is starting to fall into it's place and peaceful times are coming.  I don't think it is just me but I think it is going to happen to this town and this economy and everything.  We are going to get a good guy in the office and let everything just fall into it's place.

The last three years are full of chaos, but now I am starting to get to the core of the chaos.  A lot of the chaos is caused mainly by ADHD symptoms and I have a feeling when I am focused, things are a lot better than they used to be.  The economy is sucking right now, but a lot of the stuff, I am just chugging along pretty good.  If I am focused and seeing things the way they are, everything seems to be systematic and works out.  But when my mind is chaos, the whole world is chaos.

I am starting to think mainly in the present, and not as much in the past and the future.  The past is the past and the future, who knows what is going to happen, but in the present, it's what's there that matters.  But you have control of what will happen in the future, but the past is just the consequent of the actions.

This logic class along with my medication is starting to make me think more sequential.  This has to have to happen first before that happen and that must happen in order for this to happen. Stuff like that.  No more mumbo jumbo and emotional chaos.  This chaos of thought is also messing up my world.  It might be the most boring piece of crap, but I am learning about sequencing and sorting my thoughts.

It seems like things are starting to connect right now, which means life is going to be more stable to be in the future. I take things one thing at the time and let the rest take care of itself.  That is what the good Lord is for.  I have been more relaxed and focused more on the present time.

For the chaos that has bee happening in the last few years, it looks like the first thing is to get the medication adjusted.  Then I am going to get some help with the other things I am not seeing with the medicine. Then things are going to just flow.

A buddy of mine has predicted something.  I am going to get a girlfriend when I get high in the stats.  Getting high in the stats means things are doing pretty well.  I have a job and I know where I am going, and I am starting to get known as a more for something good than some duddy head up your butt anxious stuck in the butt ADHD guy that has trouble picking up on social cues, but thinks he's cool, but he is not.  In the future, I am actually going to be high in the stats.  I am going to get some money which will change my position in society.  Everything is going to fall into it's place and there is probably going to be a head up your butt time.

I am not having realistic expectations of what's going on.  What is supposed to be going on is for me to figure out what I am going to do, then I am going to get some more education so I can have a decent job, decent home, decent wife, decent kids, blah blah blah and then I am going to live the American Dream.  Everything is going to fall into place I guess.  But then in the future, there are going to be more problems.  Bratty kids, sucky people at work, sucky job.  Life is not perfect.  But in the future, we are going to figure out these imperfections and think of ways to fix it.  Why do you have bratty kids?  Why do you have sucky people at work?  Why do you have a sucky job? How can you fix it?  There are jobs out there to fix these things.  Psychologists and sociologists do that.

Things are starting to fall into place for me and I am realizing how everything is falling apart.  And it is my job to fix it.  It is my turn to see the other side of the fence and use my past experience to fix things.