I think it is time to let go of the past

I think I have been thinking of the past too much and it is time to move onto the future.  Of course, it is natural for me to think back, but you can't really change the past, but you can for sure change the future.  In the last few years, and as always, there is a lot of conflict and drama.  But most people will forget about it when better things that are to come.

When I first went to college, it was a roller coaster ride, but it was also a learning experience.  It is actually part of my education.  I think this experience in the college and the apartments helped me grow a lot; it gave me a hands on experience and it might help me influence my future.  If I hadn't have the experiences, I'll be in a totally different path as I did now.

Now I am back in my original apartment, ready to start from square one.  And this time, it is going to be done right.  I know it is hard to let go of the past, but maybe I should interpret them that this time is not that great as I think it was.  I have a feeling that the next few years of college are going to be done right, since I have the background from the previous experiences.  I have been educated through experience and I  will know what to do to make things that are done right.

You can't be over prepared for college, which is a mistake that I have made.  You should not plan too much, because you never know what will happen.  The next phase is going to be the post college phase and I am working on the next few years to transition to the at home life to the life away from home.  I think I have emotionally left my nest - my hometown is not home anymore.  Even though there has been time for adjustment, I have found out that I had better times in college than I had in high school.  I had meet some interesting people and I think I am going to meet people that might be more my speed.

One thing that I wished I had done is date someone and I think I am being too desperate.  I am pretending to be in love with girls that don't even probably love me back - they probably love someone else or they seem to don't care.  Long distance relationships never work and internet based relationships never work either - you need proximity.  I am most likely going to find someone in the apartment or in my classes in college, or if I get a job.  But the first thing I need to learn how to get out of my shell and to break the ice.  And the thing that will get me to do that is basically to let go of the past.  I does hurt to love someone that you can't have.