Why she loved me

Recently,  I had a feeling that this girl loved me, but I don't think she truly loved me for a long time.  But if I want to find out why she loved me at this time, I should turn back the clocks to about October 2009, nearly 2 years ago.

Around October 2009, I was getting adjusted to college life and I was starting to accept college life.  I was studying an I.T major and I was chugging along, even though I did not have the best grades in that class and I probably regretted my decision.  I was in an apartment with some crazy people, but what do you expect, it is college life.  I decided to drop out of the Reading I class and have a four day week than a five day week. Then I decided to go back to the high school to see what my high school friends are up to.  I just gotten a cat at the end of October, which may of lighten things up a bit.


November 2009 came and I was chugging around with the audio recording.  I was having a good time with the audio recording and I was thinking about making music.  I was starting to accept my computer class and thought I would be moving forward with this class.  I was just going about my business and then I gotten a friend request from some girl.  I accepted the friend request without the thought of a future romance.


There might be a reason why she liked me and if I looked back about October-November 2009, there is a reason.


1.  I was going into a predictable college major which would be a good trade which would make a lot of money.  Computers shows intelligence and girls like guys that show intelligence.  And that is a  job that will make money as well.

2.  I was involved with the audio recording.  I was doing something that I enjoy which gave me something to look forward too.  If I am doing something fun, that will make me in a more relaxed state.  Audio recording is impressive.

3. I am going back to the high school in a more carefree matter, without the extra pressures of senior year, the musical, etc.

4. I was driving around more often.  I was doing stuff more independently such as renting movies, eating at McDonalds, and going to the library ALL BY MYSELF.  I also ditched an responsibility that my parents suggested me to do to go do something more what I want.

5.  I  had a bright and optimistic view of the future, and I was ready to grow up.

But this camelot era has been ruined around Martin Luther King Jr. Day 2010 and it was mostly based on roommates.

What kind of ruined the situation

1.  Roommates are not as fun as I expected and I was couped up with them, along with their buddies.

2.  Their buddies got on my nerves.

3. Classes in the IT major started to get tougher and I wasn't ready for the big push.


4.  Grandma going downhill and eventually dying in the middle of this.

5.  Bad events with my roommates such as getting my computer stolen and getting threatened by the roommates.

6.  Being diagnosed with having ADHD and being adjusted with the medications.

The heyday was over.  I was starting to have a drop on my self esteem and a increased dependency on my parents after my diagnosis of ADHD and my grandma dying.  Along with picking up roommate habits, I was reverting back to about a 12 year old, which is a major turn off too anyone who wants to date me.  But there was an camelot era before my grandma died that raised the chances with her.