This year is going to be a shocker and it might be a major change coming. I can see the change starting to come about the beginning of last summer, about June or July, and it is going to actually change some more throughout the year.
This year is the last year of college, and I am expecting some type of "frat year" again. I haven't really had a really good frat year for a long time since I started college. The first year was the only true frat year and as each year goes by, it gets stiffer and stiffer. The second and 3rd years are not really frat years, but I made a comeback with frat with the 4th year, especially during the spring time, but it didn't last that long.
There was only about one week and it seems like it is pretty dead. I think there is a new regime in the apartment and it looks like it is pretty quiet compared to the hectic fourth year. The 4th year was a lot of drama and crisis, but this year might be the opposite - it looks like it is pretty boring but it is going to be pretty calm.
I have a feeling that I am going to have another lonely year - but only if I make up my mind. This might be the core and that was the core for a long time - it was my choice. I can open my mouth and get to know new people- the people are younger and are looking up to me; not the other way around. They are probably intimidated by me because of my age just like people were intimidated by me when they first got there, but they will eventually warm up to me and start liking me.
It looks like these kids are treating college like it is a job - they don't want to be there and they are very serious about it. I think there might be different, more stiffer parents that want them to be there for their education, just like my own parents, and that's it. This year it might take a while to warm up and hopefully it is going to be a pretty good year. This year might not be my best year in college or it might be my worse year in college, but the message might come across one day I might have to quit focusing a lot on the peer group.
I still have the peer group mentality, and I still want to fit in, and be cool. But it looks like the world is actually starting to tell me that I am at the bottom of the barrel and I would have to go along with everyone else, and respect the elders. It looks like the older people are starting to have fun and it is time to buckle down. It looks like you have to get with the program and go along with everyone else.
The internet is starting to get this way - the older people are starting to take over sites such as Facebook and YouTube, which used to be for younger people. The cell phone world is starting to get for older people - cell phones are starting to be used for practical purposes especially with the Android apps and the iTunes app stores. The pecking order is starting to become more and more established since I was about 18 years old.
But maybe there was always a pecking order out there - the high school/college world and anything to do with young people are starting to become "blah." Young people are not important anymore - little kids are not as important. It looks like I might have to go along and start sucking up.
School and college are starting to become a function - maybe it always been a function. I have been seeing this "daycare extension" for a long time, but now it has become very functional. It is a place to learn and there is a place to have a social life, and it is probably not at a college campus. Maybe I should check the internet and see where the people start meeting each other - the college campus is in your face but it is a very structured and controlled environment - the apartments are more relaxed but it still has the more structured and controlled environment.
It looks like there might be a change in the world, or maybe it has been always that way. But I think I see a little bit more of the "college yeah whatever" attitude instead of the "oh boy, frat, whoooo!!!!" attitude. It has been that way probably since about 2010 or 2011 or so, which things have been changing.
I might have to start getting with the program and I was starting to realize the cold hard truth - and I think it was a lesson to be learned. I might be this lonely person where things are not "spoon fed" - I was expecting the spoon fed and you are not seeing the spoon fed. I might have to go on the cell phone and start tracking people down - they are there - there is opportunities in this unstructured environment but it won't be "spoon fed". I am realizing also that I might be a pretty boring person if I keep whining. There is the truth and the truth is going to finally hit me.
I can keep to my old ways but eventually I might as well not as be dependent on the spoon fed world. I was ready last Sunday for a spoon feed college experience like the last few years, but it looks like I was pulled away from it. I am probably not going to like this but this is going to be the truth. It might be a pretty boring year if I am relying just on proximity. Everyone is in their own world and I am going to be annoying - the spoon fed thing was pretty easy.
I might have to take advantage of the unstructured world - I wanted to have the structure but I am not getting it. I think I am starting to realize the "truth." The structured world, if I think about it, might be sort of a flop. This structured college life - was I am really happy with it? I better think about it. The controlled pigeon hole of college actually is probably stressing a lot of people out - there is a little more freedom than the extreme structure of high school, but there is still a lot of structure. I am starting to get a preview of the 21st century way of living and I probably have an old view of college from the 1960s.
I heard stories from my uncle about college from the 1960s or so, and it looks like you can't get by with half of the stuff that happened back then. We are getting more and more seamless and I guess I better get used to it instead of being isolated. The ideas from the '60s are the start of a more unstructured world and we are getting more and more unstructured all the time.
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