I am finally getting through this

It looks like things had been pretty tough for about the last few years and I went through many tumultuous changes.  I entered college as one person and I am currently another person.  About 3 years ago, I was a different guy.  I was one of these guys that were half way gangsta looking and looks like I was not having much of a path in life.  I was signed up to go into a quickie college major on computers and to get started into the world, but I had this feeling that I was not ready for this.

There were many tough times but there was a lot of learning to do to find out what the true me is.
Of course, I had went through many struggles but I had been improving in the last few years and I'll going to keep on improving, ready to venture out into the world.

Right now I am just ironing out a few quirks and eventually things are going to be going pretty good.  I am not used to this life but once I get everything fined tuned, I'll like it and I'll think this old lifestyle was stupid and I  never should of went back to it.

But I did go through this lifestyle for a purpose and it might be the idea that I am simply growing up.  It did take a while for me to grow up and sometimes I don't want to let go of the child that is deep inside me.  But there is a world outside for me to experience and I can finally go down the path that the Good Lord wants me to take.

It looks like I have been lacking this relationship life and having the fun, social, carefree times of college.  I have been having dud roommates and I am not feeling like I am fitting in.  There are times where I am trying to find out who I am.

I do have values and I want to go down the traditional path that everyone wants to do.  I want to have my own home and my own  family, and raise my children and see them grow up .  Someday I might be a pretty good parent.  But that might be in the future, but not far off into the future - about 5-10 years but I seem to be pretty slow with getting the ball rolling.

I need to have relationships and I never dated in my life. But someday I will.  I have a feeling it is going to take a long time for me unless I do shape up and there is some serious shaping up to do.

I might be figuring it out.