This year is going to be a shocker and it might be a major change coming. I can see the change starting to come about the beginning of last summer, about June or July, and it is going to actually change some more throughout the year.
This year is the last year of college, and I am expecting some type of "frat year" again. I haven't really had a really good frat year for a long time since I started college. The first year was the only true frat year and as each year goes by, it gets stiffer and stiffer. The second and 3rd years are not really frat years, but I made a comeback with frat with the 4th year, especially during the spring time, but it didn't last that long.
There was only about one week and it seems like it is pretty dead. I think there is a new regime in the apartment and it looks like it is pretty quiet compared to the hectic fourth year. The 4th year was a lot of drama and crisis, but this year might be the opposite - it looks like it is pretty boring but it is going to be pretty calm.
I have a feeling that I am going to have another lonely year - but only if I make up my mind. This might be the core and that was the core for a long time - it was my choice. I can open my mouth and get to know new people- the people are younger and are looking up to me; not the other way around. They are probably intimidated by me because of my age just like people were intimidated by me when they first got there, but they will eventually warm up to me and start liking me.
It looks like these kids are treating college like it is a job - they don't want to be there and they are very serious about it. I think there might be different, more stiffer parents that want them to be there for their education, just like my own parents, and that's it. This year it might take a while to warm up and hopefully it is going to be a pretty good year. This year might not be my best year in college or it might be my worse year in college, but the message might come across one day I might have to quit focusing a lot on the peer group.
I still have the peer group mentality, and I still want to fit in, and be cool. But it looks like the world is actually starting to tell me that I am at the bottom of the barrel and I would have to go along with everyone else, and respect the elders. It looks like the older people are starting to have fun and it is time to buckle down. It looks like you have to get with the program and go along with everyone else.
The internet is starting to get this way - the older people are starting to take over sites such as Facebook and YouTube, which used to be for younger people. The cell phone world is starting to get for older people - cell phones are starting to be used for practical purposes especially with the Android apps and the iTunes app stores. The pecking order is starting to become more and more established since I was about 18 years old.
But maybe there was always a pecking order out there - the high school/college world and anything to do with young people are starting to become "blah." Young people are not important anymore - little kids are not as important. It looks like I might have to go along and start sucking up.
School and college are starting to become a function - maybe it always been a function. I have been seeing this "daycare extension" for a long time, but now it has become very functional. It is a place to learn and there is a place to have a social life, and it is probably not at a college campus. Maybe I should check the internet and see where the people start meeting each other - the college campus is in your face but it is a very structured and controlled environment - the apartments are more relaxed but it still has the more structured and controlled environment.
It looks like there might be a change in the world, or maybe it has been always that way. But I think I see a little bit more of the "college yeah whatever" attitude instead of the "oh boy, frat, whoooo!!!!" attitude. It has been that way probably since about 2010 or 2011 or so, which things have been changing.
I might have to start getting with the program and I was starting to realize the cold hard truth - and I think it was a lesson to be learned. I might be this lonely person where things are not "spoon fed" - I was expecting the spoon fed and you are not seeing the spoon fed. I might have to go on the cell phone and start tracking people down - they are there - there is opportunities in this unstructured environment but it won't be "spoon fed". I am realizing also that I might be a pretty boring person if I keep whining. There is the truth and the truth is going to finally hit me.
I can keep to my old ways but eventually I might as well not as be dependent on the spoon fed world. I was ready last Sunday for a spoon feed college experience like the last few years, but it looks like I was pulled away from it. I am probably not going to like this but this is going to be the truth. It might be a pretty boring year if I am relying just on proximity. Everyone is in their own world and I am going to be annoying - the spoon fed thing was pretty easy.
I might have to take advantage of the unstructured world - I wanted to have the structure but I am not getting it. I think I am starting to realize the "truth." The structured world, if I think about it, might be sort of a flop. This structured college life - was I am really happy with it? I better think about it. The controlled pigeon hole of college actually is probably stressing a lot of people out - there is a little more freedom than the extreme structure of high school, but there is still a lot of structure. I am starting to get a preview of the 21st century way of living and I probably have an old view of college from the 1960s.
I heard stories from my uncle about college from the 1960s or so, and it looks like you can't get by with half of the stuff that happened back then. We are getting more and more seamless and I guess I better get used to it instead of being isolated. The ideas from the '60s are the start of a more unstructured world and we are getting more and more unstructured all the time.
Thursday, August 29, 2013
Sunday, August 25, 2013
The next year
The next year in college is going to be probably my final year in college for a long time and the year that I will finally enter the real world. I am planning on entering the "real world" in 2014, but I have been in the real world somewhat since 2009. Actually, I am in the real world the moment I am outside the world of academia - the real world is on the internet.
Of course, the school world is a place where you see your peers, and at the college age, it is about the 18-24 year old age group. The 18-24 age group is the time when you are in high school, but still sitting around with a high school like environment - it seems like it is the next step past high school where everyone is in a boarding school like environment, but it has the same concept of high school.
I have been in the community college lifestyle and it looks like it is more "real world" than the university life style, but eventually I am going to enter the actual "real world."
I had a sample of the real world during this summer - I have been in the apartments by myself for part of the time, and it seems like it is a different world than the college world. The teenage-college age just blends in and it is very hard to find someone that is in the teenage-college age. There are a lot of people that are in their 30s having kids and there are a lot of elderly people, and little kids. This might be a population dynamic showing that two generations - The Baby Boomers and Generation Y are dominating the real world. The teenage age is probably a smaller part of the population, even up to the college age and they are not important. There was a lot more teenagers about 15 years ago than now - it looks like that world was loaded with teenagers and college students, but now the teenagers had grown into the adult population. The kids of Generation Y are also dominating the real world - there are lots of little kids.
Facebook is not really targeted for the teenage audience anymore - actually the Facebook age are in their 30s and 40s now, when they were in their 20s and 30s 10 years ago. It is just a shift in the population.
It looks like there is a established pecking order when I am out in the real world, and I am not important. I am the bottom the barrel and it is hard to find some people that are of my own age, especially of the area that I live. It looks like you have to start liking people that are in their 30s and 40s in the real world, and start going along with their interests - really you can develop the same interests such as music when you are in your teens up to the day you die.
I think in the real world you need to find your group or your interest, or you are not going to fit in. I can't wander around trying to find yourself like you are a teenager; you need to have some type of established interest or identity. There are many types of people out there and I need to find a category - there are people that go hunting, fishing, and snowmobiling; there are people that like music and travel, blah blah blah. I can't just wander without many goals.
The peer world can be fun - you can find people that you can relate to but when they start getting adult interests, you can relate to any age group. Any age group can like music, any age group can like art, etc.
I think I am going to fit in the real world and I am going to like it once I get a established interest that the "grown up" guys like, and I do have some interests that the grown up people like. I will start liking the person more for the age, he is just a human that has been on earth a little longer.
Of course, the school world is a place where you see your peers, and at the college age, it is about the 18-24 year old age group. The 18-24 age group is the time when you are in high school, but still sitting around with a high school like environment - it seems like it is the next step past high school where everyone is in a boarding school like environment, but it has the same concept of high school.
I have been in the community college lifestyle and it looks like it is more "real world" than the university life style, but eventually I am going to enter the actual "real world."
I had a sample of the real world during this summer - I have been in the apartments by myself for part of the time, and it seems like it is a different world than the college world. The teenage-college age just blends in and it is very hard to find someone that is in the teenage-college age. There are a lot of people that are in their 30s having kids and there are a lot of elderly people, and little kids. This might be a population dynamic showing that two generations - The Baby Boomers and Generation Y are dominating the real world. The teenage age is probably a smaller part of the population, even up to the college age and they are not important. There was a lot more teenagers about 15 years ago than now - it looks like that world was loaded with teenagers and college students, but now the teenagers had grown into the adult population. The kids of Generation Y are also dominating the real world - there are lots of little kids.
Facebook is not really targeted for the teenage audience anymore - actually the Facebook age are in their 30s and 40s now, when they were in their 20s and 30s 10 years ago. It is just a shift in the population.
It looks like there is a established pecking order when I am out in the real world, and I am not important. I am the bottom the barrel and it is hard to find some people that are of my own age, especially of the area that I live. It looks like you have to start liking people that are in their 30s and 40s in the real world, and start going along with their interests - really you can develop the same interests such as music when you are in your teens up to the day you die.
I think in the real world you need to find your group or your interest, or you are not going to fit in. I can't wander around trying to find yourself like you are a teenager; you need to have some type of established interest or identity. There are many types of people out there and I need to find a category - there are people that go hunting, fishing, and snowmobiling; there are people that like music and travel, blah blah blah. I can't just wander without many goals.
The peer world can be fun - you can find people that you can relate to but when they start getting adult interests, you can relate to any age group. Any age group can like music, any age group can like art, etc.
I think I am going to fit in the real world and I am going to like it once I get a established interest that the "grown up" guys like, and I do have some interests that the grown up people like. I will start liking the person more for the age, he is just a human that has been on earth a little longer.
Friday, August 23, 2013
It has been a long journey
This year, so far, will mark my final year of college, for a long time, and it has been a long journey. As I said before I had learned a lot and I had changed a lot. About 2 years of this journey was a high school extension and I needed it, and now it is time for me to start buckling down on a career.
This last 4 years was a lot of growing up and traditionally I will be out in the "real world" by now and last spring would of been graduation. But I am not done and I got about one more year to go. Of course, this year is going to be the year that actually counts for the money so I am going to have to buckle down and study, but I have noticed it is going to be more growing up experience for me.
The last 4 years had it's ups and it's down, but there was some periods that were downright depressing, but it was actually a growing up experience. It looks like for about 3 years I was stuck with the same people of the same type, and it looks like I had a hard time getting out of this stigma. This similar stigma happened during high school and it looks like I went through a similar path through high school.
But now, hopefully, I am going to snap out of this stigma for good. I did have about one or two good years out of high school, and then I went back to the same grind; the same pattern when I was in college.
But there is going to be another year of identity formation, as always, identity keeps forming on throughout your life. These psychology classes are helpful and I have a better understanding of people than ever before. I changed a lot - I went from this one guy when I started college and I went from this other guy when I got out of college. I think I actually went uphill in college where I went downhill in high school.
One day I am going to forget about my high school life and one day I am going to forget about college life just like I forgot about a lot of elementary school. Elementary school had it's tough moments but now I just think about the good memories of elementary school. I am going to look at high school at a different light in the future, probably about 10 years from now, and about 20 years from now I am going to look at college at a different light.
I really don't know what my future is going to be like but it is probably going to be a lot brightening than high school or college - I liked the youth but there has been a lot of problems. I think people in the older world would be a lot nicer and considerate, and more open minded especially with dating. Maybe one day I am going to be not as obsessed with being cool or fitting in with the crowd, or that might be always a part of me. Maybe I have not been as obsessed as I think I was with actually being cool and fitting with the crowd; I think I am cool but I might be behind. Maybe it is time for me to give up on things from the past and once I gave up things from the past, I had fit in a lot better.
Lets say I was going along with fads about 1999-2000 around 2005, I would be considered not cool, and maybe hanging on to fads about 2005-2006 now I will be not cool. It was a different era back then. 2005-2006 had a lot of the hip-hop and emo fad, but eventually in 2013, a lot of the hip-hop and emo fads are not cool. Probably a good predictor of what is emerging is what is in the underground and alternative scene. About 2004 or 2005, it looks like the "indie-hipster" look was the underground and then by 2008-2009, it has become the mainstream culture. There is probably something in the underground right now that is probably going to emerge as the mainstream trend - I don't think the coffee shop lifestyle was going to be the fad anymore in the future; the was something that was underground in the 1990s and 2000s that has been oversaturated by the media by 2010 and eventually we are getting sick and tired of it.
I probably do sound a lot more interested to listen to when I do get off myself and this is just a stream of consciousness blog - it is very therapeutic and it may solve a lot of your problems. I can see predicting what is cool might be a natural thing with me and it looks like a interest when I am pretty relaxed. Maybe this psychobabble is going to stress me out a lot and make me sound like I am overanalyzing myself - even this sounds like psychobabble anyway.
This last 4 years was a lot of growing up and traditionally I will be out in the "real world" by now and last spring would of been graduation. But I am not done and I got about one more year to go. Of course, this year is going to be the year that actually counts for the money so I am going to have to buckle down and study, but I have noticed it is going to be more growing up experience for me.
The last 4 years had it's ups and it's down, but there was some periods that were downright depressing, but it was actually a growing up experience. It looks like for about 3 years I was stuck with the same people of the same type, and it looks like I had a hard time getting out of this stigma. This similar stigma happened during high school and it looks like I went through a similar path through high school.
But now, hopefully, I am going to snap out of this stigma for good. I did have about one or two good years out of high school, and then I went back to the same grind; the same pattern when I was in college.
But there is going to be another year of identity formation, as always, identity keeps forming on throughout your life. These psychology classes are helpful and I have a better understanding of people than ever before. I changed a lot - I went from this one guy when I started college and I went from this other guy when I got out of college. I think I actually went uphill in college where I went downhill in high school.
One day I am going to forget about my high school life and one day I am going to forget about college life just like I forgot about a lot of elementary school. Elementary school had it's tough moments but now I just think about the good memories of elementary school. I am going to look at high school at a different light in the future, probably about 10 years from now, and about 20 years from now I am going to look at college at a different light.
I really don't know what my future is going to be like but it is probably going to be a lot brightening than high school or college - I liked the youth but there has been a lot of problems. I think people in the older world would be a lot nicer and considerate, and more open minded especially with dating. Maybe one day I am going to be not as obsessed with being cool or fitting in with the crowd, or that might be always a part of me. Maybe I have not been as obsessed as I think I was with actually being cool and fitting with the crowd; I think I am cool but I might be behind. Maybe it is time for me to give up on things from the past and once I gave up things from the past, I had fit in a lot better.
Lets say I was going along with fads about 1999-2000 around 2005, I would be considered not cool, and maybe hanging on to fads about 2005-2006 now I will be not cool. It was a different era back then. 2005-2006 had a lot of the hip-hop and emo fad, but eventually in 2013, a lot of the hip-hop and emo fads are not cool. Probably a good predictor of what is emerging is what is in the underground and alternative scene. About 2004 or 2005, it looks like the "indie-hipster" look was the underground and then by 2008-2009, it has become the mainstream culture. There is probably something in the underground right now that is probably going to emerge as the mainstream trend - I don't think the coffee shop lifestyle was going to be the fad anymore in the future; the was something that was underground in the 1990s and 2000s that has been oversaturated by the media by 2010 and eventually we are getting sick and tired of it.
I probably do sound a lot more interested to listen to when I do get off myself and this is just a stream of consciousness blog - it is very therapeutic and it may solve a lot of your problems. I can see predicting what is cool might be a natural thing with me and it looks like a interest when I am pretty relaxed. Maybe this psychobabble is going to stress me out a lot and make me sound like I am overanalyzing myself - even this sounds like psychobabble anyway.
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