You can learn a lot through facebook

Facebook has recently released the Timeline application and you can learn a lot through what is going on your Facebook.  I can see I changed a lot and I think it might be the medication taking effect.  It looks like when I am on different medications I have a rapid change in personality and the like.  I don't think anybody is reading my blog so I can dig deep my inner thoughts, but on  the internet I have to understand it is not a diary but a place that you talk to people - that is where the concept of theory of mind takes place and it seems like some people lack the theory of mind on the internet.  I had read about the concept of "digital autism" and that is what is turning into for the people that spend time on the internet.

Anyway, but my medication is basically gone and I am ADDing on the internet, so I might as well take a look at what I was interested in throughout the years.

When I first went on Facebook in 2008 it looked like I was interested in teen idols such as Chris Brown, Hilary Duff, and Miley Cyrus.  I was growing up and was starting to like Mariah Carey as well but I remember the fan pages were not that popular yet and I was not nuts about it, and I was pretty honest about my interests.  I did like YouTube at that time but the internet I had was very slow, but I did watch YouTube in a chop formation.  This might be an honest application of what I like and I still like Mariah Carey, etc.

It looked like in 2009 I switched to liking more R&B and hip-hop and some rock artists, along with a few pop artists but it looked like I was going through a R&B and hip-hop phase in music, which I remember I was doing before 2009 but I just added them as fan pages.  I was a pretty normal teenager and it seemed like I was getting into Jeff Dunham and Family Guy and I seemed to be a fan of Shane Dawson.  It looked like I was a pretty definable and predictable person.

2010 was the year I was realizing deep down I was a softie and it seems like I was going against my R&B and hip-hop interest and starting to listen to more adult orientated music.  I was spending a lot of time on the internet - I think I was trying to find out who I was and I was experimenting with different things. I think the roommates had influenced that and this gangsta attitude was not that cool,and deep down I realized that I am pretty "square" and comformist, and the gangsta attitude was more of a conformity thing than actually a rebellion.  It looks like I was trying to fit in instead of being hardcore, and a lot of the stuff the roommates were doing were too hardcore for me.  It was an awakening for me and it is time for me to shape up.

Education is also influencing that too along with the medications.  It seems like I was trying to find myself on my new medication and I was trying to get educated as well.  That's why I seem to wear messed up clothes for a while because of the idenity management I was going through.

It looks like 2011 I was trying to find my self as well and my interests are starting to become more diverse.  I seem to be like an liberal arts major and that's what the liberal arts major is for, is to explore the world to see what you are and what you are not, and by the time I was done with the major, you have a very broad opinion of who you are and are not.  It looks like I was experimenting around with chill out music, jazz, etc. just to find my new idenity but I think sometimes I get weird.  But I was not 100% medicated so I seemed to be this person who is "out in their own world" and down to Earth.  But it seemed like that too much college without much idenity will make you some "thinking man hipster" that is overeducated and do not know who he is, probably with diversity propaganda.  It looks like I was trying to learn about my culture and my background, and I seemed to be fascinated by that.

By 2012, it seemed like I have gotten back to Earth but I seemed to be open minded about things.  I am still learning about the world around me, but instead of exploring I am starting to figure out who I am and trying to stick to it.  I can't just sit around just exploring everything, you need to find out what you like and stick to it.  Eventually the day will come and I will start sticking to it.  I think you need to be focused with who you are.  You can't listen to country one day and then listen to emo another day, and listen to techno. I am starting to be tolerate and I am starting to realize I am musical, and maybe that is the thing that I appreciate music for the sake it is music, not the sociocultural stereotypes that go with it.  I am listening to music because it is  the way it is, not because I am trying to put on on act.  But one day I am going to find something  that clicks and it is going to click.

But I am starting to realize what the music is really for and I am starting to find a sociocultural view of myself.  R&B is technically for black people, but I think anyone can listen to R&B.  Forget there is a black guy singing it and listen to the harmonies, the melodies, etc. the music.  I always associate country with rednecks but I should just bite the bullet and get rid of the redneck stereotype, and I associate rock music will stoners.  Not necessary.  There should not be an stereotype to certain things but I think people tend to put things into stereotypes and categories.  But maybe I am going to fall into one too because the stereotypes are just an exaggeration of certain subcultures that need to stop.  But ones people find out who they are, the will eventually fall into a category and stick to it, and I think I need to explore and stick to it, or remain neutral.