The flood experience and growing up

My hometown was drenched by a massive rainstorm a few weeks ago, which created a massive flood, which has impacted almost everyone in the hometown, including me.  This was an experience for growing up and this was one of these experiences that help me realize the important things in life, as well as appreciate the simpler things in life that I have taken for granted.

Going home from college was somewhat of a break:  I got my clothes washed, and my belly feed, but it was a different experience with the flood.  There was a lot more responsibility and courage that is needed.  I had different beliefs of what is important to me than my parents.  I am at the age where quality relationships are important, as well as finding myself.  My parents are done with finding themselves and they are taking their time to help other people such as the family.

Relationships are really important and that involves a lot of "give and take", which I have not been focusing a lot of my energy on lately.  I want just people to give things to me without giving things to anyone else.  Relationships require a lot of my commitment of someone else to another person and that is a lot of giving.  I am giving up my life to spend time with this other person and to give appreciation to this other person.  I need to be a more selfless individual.

This flood experience has been teaching me a lot of valuable lessons.  The world is not all about me, but I am part of a community and I need to help other people to be part of the community.  Not everyone is going to come and suck up to me; I am just another person and people are going to know me for the function that I was doing, and how I have contributed to the community and to other people.

I do have many things that may be helpful for the community and for other people.  Relationships tend to have rewards and I have many things that may be rewards for some other people, and  I may have some talents or rewards that are helpful for the community.  I am just another speck and I am not the center of the universe - I am really just another random person doing that thing.

I am trying to find the right someone that is for me and I think I need to give myself to others.   There might be something about me might be helpful for another person.  A selfless individual might be better than a selffish individual - I should show that I do love someone that have someone love me for just being me!

People usually ask other people "What do they do?".  What is their function.  Do they cook, raise children, create food, heal people, protect people, educated people - there might be something that they do.  Other people will love to hear me make music, but other people will like to see me do some practical things that are going to help. What am  I here to help? There must be something that I am here for to help someone.

My contributions are starting to take place with my cat and he appreciates it.  I feed him, let him out, and just be his companion, and he looks forward to seeing me.  Maybe I can do this to humans - I can nurture the human and the person will want to come back to see me.