A fresh start

A beginning is going to start again for me in college.  At least I have a direction in life and I am going to be going somewhere. I am not that gum hole about the job situation, but at least I have some income.  Work is not that important to me but I need to have it to survive, but I'll see what my attitude towards work for me when I get into the door.

I don't really have any career goal in mind, but I do have a certain career environment.  I like to work in something I like to hang around in such as a store or a restaurant.  I don't think I am the type that will work in a government instuition or something like that; I prefer to have something in the private sectors.  Stores are the most fun and I get to see a lot of people - a place such as Wal Mart will not be that bad to get a job.

I am not a work person, but I never know, I'll have to try it.  I tend to be more of a family person or an relationship person.  Romance and relationships and family seem to be a lot more important to me, but I need to get the work sector in my life out of the way.  I haven't really found much love and I haven't found much work, but eventually I am going to find both.

There are people that are going to get me - there have to and there is probably somebody is going to love me.  I am not sure who loves me but I think there are a few that are closer to loving me.  I never really had an relationship, and I really don't know why.  I don't think I really known anyone that will would like to have an relationship with me or I have anything in common.  I tend to be this shy person, but seems to be thoughtful and I had been told that I am brilliant when you get me talking.  I could have an awesome person and I had been told that people like me, but it seems to be all hidden.  I might be a person that tends to think and process before getting some thoughts down.

I am not the type that is going to party or anything; I tend to be on the modest side and what everything to be in a structured fashion. I am trying to be flexible but I do like to have routine.

I think some girl is going to like me eventually when I get out of my shell and open my mouth - I can be a pretty fun person when I open up a little bit.  Eventually someone is going to find me that will get me and have a similar personality to me.  I think there have been a few close calls and there are ones that probably have the similar personality that will "get me". I think people are going to get me very well - I might be one of these more thoughtful, analytical people and they are around.

Maybe there is really not many thoughtful, analytical type people and if you get me going, I can be fun.  You have to get me to open up a bit.

I tend to express myself very well into music and dance, and that might be the ticket.  There might be things that words cannot express - I find a girl and I think just being there just makes me fine.  I'll feel speechless.  But eventually someday somebody is going to find me and I hope they will.

The self confidence might expand when I get a job somewhere, such as Wal Mart.  I got called for orientated at Wal Mart for a cart pusher and I think this might change me a lot.  There is going to be a fresh start.

With the thoughtfulness and the analyticalness, I could get a job somewhere - some good career and probably a good mate.  Lord, lets hope it is going to be put together.