I want to keep my youth

I am starting to turn 22 in a month which means time is pressing on.  Technically, I am old enough to do anything and I don't have to waste my time getting into stuff.  But I don't think there is anything that I really care about getting into and I probably haven't changed that much since high school.

Of course, I had changed a lot since high school, and maybe I am realizing that I rather be this clean person instead of put on this act.  I am not the person to get into drugs and party, and I rather do things that are a lot more clean.  You don't need to do drugs and all that stuff to be clean and have fun.  College is not one big party and I am not a big fan of this big party life.

There has been a stigma about the high school and college life - high school and college is supposed to be all about "rebellion" - what is there to rebel about?  Of course, there is the freedom but you are making a fool out of yourself.  I am not missing much - why you have to dope yourself up to have a good time; you can find some other things to do while having a good time.

I think there is a more conservative bunch of people coming up and I am the start of it.  We probably want to bring the youth and innocence that is only seen on the Disney Channel while all other parts of life is all about filth.  But we do have our flaws - maybe we are boring people that are missing out on the fun.

I rather be doing something else - I rather be petting my kitty cat than partying and drinking.  Of course, maybe I can have a good time but you don't have to have all the stimulants to make you have a good time.  These "chemicals" in your body are not cool and they might do a lot of harm in your body.

The people that are telling me that you have to use drugs and have sex to be cool are probably stuck in the 1960s counterculture movement that seem to make a big mess.   We are in the 21st century and it is time for us to shape up. This stuff is starting to be things that used to be grandmas stuff and I want to keep my youth.

Of course, it sounds like I am stodgy and old, but I am really not.  You can have lots of fun without having all the extras - every song on the radio sounds the same.  Have some sort of drug and screw a lot of women, and start seeing the aftereffects and I am seeing the after effects.

I do want to keep my youth and I want to be looking good. College is not all about the partying and the sex, etc.  I don't want to sound like some nerd but we are probably changing our attitudes about "geeky" anyway.  Growing up is tough and I want to still stay young.

I am almost 22 years old and still listening to clean cut people like Aly & AJ and watching clean cut TV like Father Knows Best - from the '50s.  This proves that you can still have fun without having sex and doing all this crazy stuff.  I first realized that I was different when I first entered college - I have been involved with a lot of stuff that I seem to disagree with and that started to decide who I am.  I am not that and this is cool.  Who cares about a gangsta lifestyle - it is glamorized in the movies but it don't look that cool in real life.  A lot of stuff is glamorized in the movies but really it is not that great in real life.  But maybe we can glamorize clean cut living.