Now we have an idea of what the next 4 years are going to be like and it might be the same thing as it was for the last 4 years, but now I am an older person. I am starting to get this apathetic feeling if I am ready for the world or not, or what I am going to be when I enter the world. I am sort of in the world right now and eventually I am going to be exposed to more and more of the world. The working world is something that defines us as adults and when you get that money, you have the freedom for the most part to choose what you want to pay for.
It looks like the money I am getting might be great for my development. I actually get to buy things and to try things out. With my money, I actually bought some things such as an iPod, new clothes and accesories, and a video subscription, along with some music. I am trying to define who I am and I am better a better concept of who I am.
I had been told that I had been this person that likes to think a lot about things and to ponder the world. I can get pretty philosophical but this thinking might be a result of me just trying to figure things out. But now I got movies and TV to watch, music to listen, etc. that will keep me from thinking. But really the social world is something that I love to get exposed to and I like people - but maybe it is time for me to get with what regular people think like.
A lot of people out there are more doers than the thinkers and I am more of the thinkers. I am the analyzers, the evaluators, etc. which is good and there are many good careers out there. I think I should research some careers where I can use my brilliance of a mind of thinking.
But sometimes the different thinking can cause a hindrance since my mind is more on Saturn than actually worried about things that are on Earth. Many things that I am thinking about should be a bunch of garbage in the brain - yeah maybe a good movie or two might make me relax. But there are probably some good movies or music to get me thinking out there.
I am off track but there is a stream of consciousness I got to go through, it helps to start figuring things out. I just write away to see what is truly coming out.
In the future it is going to be unknown but there might be a career for me so I can get settled on my own and I might start turning into some normal thinking person out there instead of some guy that likes to ponder everything out there. It is healthy to have some time to think and grow, and I am probably trying to figure out who I am in a more logical sense.
College got me down to Earth and I realize I am not going to be some big rapper or rockstar, or professional athlete or whatever, but I might be more on the realistic grounds of managing a Wal Mart or a McDonalds in a small town, or something like that. There is something to think about.
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