Everything that happened to you is planned

I am not trying to be a preacher, but I have this belief that everything that happened to you - good or bad, is planned in the eyes of God.  I have been put on this planet for a reason and I have been chosen the right location,
along with the right  genetic code and everything for a reason.  But I am not told that reason but all the good things and the bad things that happen to me happen for a reason.  It looks like everything is planned and only God will know.

Think about some random day - God has planned me to have that happened to me.  I am struggling to get a job but there is going to be a time and a place where I should get a job, and it looks like I can't really predict it until it happens.  But there is problem some master plan.  It looks like I am going to keep trying places but there is going to be somewhat of a master plan in the background.

The job that I get first is probably a prediction of what career I should be going into and probably the things that I have been through is probably a prediction of what career I should go into.  They are always asking you what experience and what skills you have - it seems like there is a mismatch of what you should be going into.

It looks like I had experience with decling old people and it looks like I have some knowledge and some experience of the special ed department.  It looks like I have experience with children as well too. But it seems like in the summer, I have experience with the role of a caretaker for my grandparents and during the school years, it seems like things have been laid out.  It seems like the good times in high school has taken place about junior year when things seem to be put together.

But there are some things that make the good times in high school.  It looks like if I follow the rules and wear nice, conforming clothing with everyone else, I am going to be fine.  School is like a job.  If it looks like I am experimenting and clashing, I am going to have a problem, wearing some gid up or some mismatch clothing.

Students don't want to see someone is losing something all the time - klutz.  They don't want to see a pacer or a stalker.

You can see what a lot of my problems are.  Wearing some bright colors together that clash such as green and blue - really not cool.  Most guys are wearing something more conservative such as a brown or a black or a gray.  It seems like really bright colors on guys are not very cool.  That was back then.  Wearing bright colors together as a guy probably shows a lack of confidence and authority, and it does look gay.  Acne is a problem - it looks like you are some zit faced awkward person that doesn't wash.  So imagine a person who does not have his collar tucked in, clashing colors, acne, etc. It looks like the person doesn't know what he is doing and probably not the brighest bulb.  But look at a person who wears more darker, authoritave clothing like a suit with less clashing colors, clean face, clean hair, etc. very respectable.

I probably had that attitude dark colors are gloomy - they are not glommy, they are more authoritative.  Guys traditionally did wear dark colors - it is a suit.  There is also something weird when you are switching idenities as well.